The psychiatrist at the hospital said she suspects I’m mildly psychotic all the time. I want to throat punch her. Is that a symptom of psychosis I wonder?!?
If that’s true it would kind of explain some things like the constant conversations going on in my head when people aren’t around (except my husband, they don’t mind him). I also have a lot of troubles remembering the details of my day and during psychotic episodes I mostly blackout. I keep snapshots, but they are hard to recall, they seem to come to my mind when they want to be remembered rather than when I want to remember them. I’m delusional but I have good insight as far as I’m aware so I don’t know if that counts for anything.
I guess it’s just something to be aware of, and to maybe watch for and compensate accordingly. Also, I might need a different ap if I find that as I pay attention to it more that it actually is the case. I don’t complain too much about the constant conversations because I find the repetitiveness can actually be soothing and can calm me down a piece.
However, there are many times when the inside of my head gets so noisy and out of control that I’m simply overwhelmed. When it’s too noisy, and you just can’t take it anymore, it sucks that the noise follows you where ever you go and there’s no escaping it.
I dont think wanting to punch her in the throat is part of ur psychosis… i want to hit my dad sonetimes when he thinks it just my mental illness on why im frustrated about certain things. Like living somewhere idc to be.
I’m sorry you’re dealing with this, but it’s good that you’re starting to be able to name your symptoms more clearly. Now you can be an even better advocate for yourself and get the treatment you need.
I am sick of all the meddling with my meds. Seeing a psychologist isn’t going that well. I do not get on with my case worker as she never returns my calls.
I don’t care if I am mildly psychotic. I have capacity enough to work. All these attempts to make things better just are not going to work.
■■■■■■■ talking about trauma and stuff that happened years ago is ■■■■■■■■. I don’t see the point. I do my best to forget things and having someone digging into my past is not ■■■■■■■ helpful.
I am so angry that my pdoc has convinced me to do this.
Talking does nothing. My pdoc knows the only way I can remember things is by the letters he sends, how is ■■■■■■■ psychology going to work.
The thing is it works for some people. Stand up for yourself and say it’s not working for you. Steer you ship before they send you into the rocks. This is not their journey, it’s yours. It’s perfectly ok to put the past down and walk away. I have and I am at peace with the past like never before. And I used to have flashbacks and everything. Now they are gone and I’m praying they don’t come back. People say we must forgive, bullsh*t, just put it down, some situations and people don’t necessitate forgiveness. That’s my two cents. You’ll have to find your own truth however.
Always handing us unwanted good news, aren’t they? It takes a bit to accept – or never do? Are they right or not? It’s up to us to decide, but often they have insights we fiercely deny. I can really relate to this. Take it easy.