Psychotic illness

Today my nurse told me I have a psychotic illness. It’s the first time since I was hospitalized 2010-2011 someone tells me that. My pdoc has avoided telling me that all the time.

We talked about my childhood. It was a mess. She believes my father also has a psychotic illness. I believe he is a psychopath. But he has been paranoid a lot when I was a kid. Beat me up. Threatened and mocked me. He was often nervous and had anxiety.

I will continue to see my nurse to talk about my childhood.

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Glad you found someone you can work through this with.

Hope things get easier and better for you.

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Sometimes the person was trying to sugar coat the truth. It might be helpful in the beginning, but not so in the long run.

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My pdoc has the mentality that meds are a cure for it…even I who benefit from meds immensely still face symptoms

Pdocs sometimes say/do misleading things

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So sorry @Comatose you had a bad parent. We can work through the nightmares and then put them in the past so they don’t bother us in the present.

But if sz is a chemical thing, I think TOO much talk about the past is not a good thing and only drags up nightmares.
And I think doctors tried to blame my Mom who was nice, on my illness back in the refrigerator Mom days and made her cry.

That’s when I knew the doctors were full of ■■■■■■■■ and I distrust them to this day, except for my current one, who I’ve had for 20 years now. You think she would have cured me by now!

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I’m really glad you have someone to talk to, and I always think honesty is the best policy. You’re brave to face your past and I hope you can find some peace.

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I told her I started hearing the devil when I was 15. He yelled at me and told me I will die. At school nobody else reacted to the yelling voice so I figured out it was only me hearing him. I’ve always reacted, in other people’s eyes, cool if something strange happens. I’m not the first one screaming if there is a fire or something. Actually I don’t react at all. if it becomes too much I get into a state of apathy.