Today my nurse told me I have a psychotic illness. It’s the first time since I was hospitalized 2010-2011 someone tells me that. My pdoc has avoided telling me that all the time.
We talked about my childhood. It was a mess. She believes my father also has a psychotic illness. I believe he is a psychopath. But he has been paranoid a lot when I was a kid. Beat me up. Threatened and mocked me. He was often nervous and had anxiety.
I will continue to see my nurse to talk about my childhood.
Glad you found someone you can work through this with.
Hope things get easier and better for you.
Sometimes the person was trying to sugar coat the truth. It might be helpful in the beginning, but not so in the long run.
My pdoc has the mentality that meds are a cure for it…even I who benefit from meds immensely still face symptoms
Pdocs sometimes say/do misleading things
So sorry @Comatose you had a bad parent. We can work through the nightmares and then put them in the past so they don’t bother us in the present.
But if sz is a chemical thing, I think TOO much talk about the past is not a good thing and only drags up nightmares.
And I think doctors tried to blame my Mom who was nice, on my illness back in the refrigerator Mom days and made her cry.
That’s when I knew the doctors were full of ■■■■■■■■ and I distrust them to this day, except for my current one, who I’ve had for 20 years now. You think she would have cured me by now!
I’m really glad you have someone to talk to, and I always think honesty is the best policy. You’re brave to face your past and I hope you can find some peace.
I told her I started hearing the devil when I was 15. He yelled at me and told me I will die. At school nobody else reacted to the yelling voice so I figured out it was only me hearing him. I’ve always reacted, in other people’s eyes, cool if something strange happens. I’m not the first one screaming if there is a fire or something. Actually I don’t react at all. if it becomes too much I get into a state of apathy.