Its ok @SoitGoes. I know people can be cruel but that’s their problem. I use to scream at the bad voices to shut up. Sometimes it worked…
Seriously there is no kindness in it at all. Only guilt and ■■■■ that feeds rumination.
The sleep I did get is probably just enough to keep me up all night.
I think the same sometimes.
If there really are telepaths why haven’t they used their super power to fix what’s broken in the world then I figure that it’s not real it’s just my brain misfiring.
Yeah I sleep for 4 hours exactly then I’m up again even after slamming a 12 pack of Ipa
Yeah. That’s what it’s gotta be. It sucks though to have a brain caught up in this imaginary world.
Apparently they can here me but they don’t want to talk. When they do talk they say exactly the wrong things.
Kind of like real life interactions. No one wants to talk.
That’s about what I just did. No alcohol though.
I just wrote a nasty review of my apartment complex. There screwing the other tenants and me over and I just kept hear “take it to the mattresses”. I did it anonymously and was honest as I could be but feel bad at the same time. I don’t usually do that but they are not a nice company with good ethics.
As long as you were honest and reasonable.
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I think I was. I was a little heated but tried to non biased as possible. They are jacking the rents up. Some people have been here for many years. A voice was like imagine your telling your long lost rich aunt about the place. So that’s what I did
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Sorry to go off on a rant I know the bad voices suck.
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Good to see you’re getting some self-confidence back, I think it’s crucial in not letting the hallucinations get to you. At some point you might be able to more or less predict them. I don’t onlymean in exact words, but that sense that you saw the remarks coming and are no longer surprised by them. That sense that it is the same ol’ ■■■■ over again. To me that helped to de-humanize the voices, recognizing the same pattern again and again. If that’s happening then you’re not only on your way to be less affected by them psychologically, but it actually bears some resemblance to a recovery from the mechanism that allegedly produces the verbal hallucinations in the first place. The current theory on them is that something is wrong in a mechanism that predicts our own thoughts/actions, and therefore misattributes them to other people. If you can reflectively establish this prediction of thoughts it not only gives some psychological solace but it might help to re-establish this sub-conscious mechanism. I’ve had this happen when my symptoms were slowly subsiding. It kind of feels like thinking the same thing yourself while you hallucinate the same remark at the same time. Maybe you yourself slightly earlier. It felt really empowering, hope you get to experience this as well.
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My escape might be happening as well, buy it is to early to tell. It could all go terribly wrong or just right.
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As I find new mental territory the messages always change. Day by day I’ll get there.
Thanks for this response.
I’ll try to dehumanize it. It does already seem like a framework more so than intelligent responses.
Got a full 11 hrs of sleep and the voices are gone.
They seemed to come out and punish me as I was doing so well.
After a couple minutes of ■■■■■■■■ I quit listening and somehow managed to fall asleep.
Now I’ve got my strength back.
You have all the time you’d need. Be patient and that “just right” will come true.
Good luck newanda.
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