Like today I feel entirely sane, saner then I ever have been, but at the same time that is how I felt two weeks ago. Is continue where I continue to find new levels of sanity and peace. The voices are quiet again and fading. They are saying anything decipherable… Perhaps this will all fade, but I know that telepathy probably isn’t going to stop any time soon.
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well, I’m glad to hear of some progress Bryan. That’s great !!
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This is how I felt when I read my journals dating back to three years ago. I was like wow I was really weird! Now I wonder if in three years I’ll look at myself from right now and think the same thing.
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You will get better and better!
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It’s weird looking back at it…I know it is for me. A lot of people say they just want to move on and forget what they went through…not me…I want to have a good picture of what I went through…if only to understand it a little better.
I love how people say overcome cancer and it’s a huge deal but when it’s mental illness…in my case anyway nobody wants to talk about it…mostly family…they almost seem as if they’d rather pretend none of it ever happened. And these are people who have been involved in NAMI and clubhouse they just seem uncomfortable when I talk about what I went through…like it’s going to come back or something if I speak of it…
I look back to keep myself from going back there. As for understanding it, I gave up. To this day there are things I’ve thought and done that I can’t reason or explain other than just being very ill.
Overcoming cancer is a huge deal. It’s unfortunate that people shy away from talking about recovery from mental illness though, it’s pretty huge too.
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Yeah I get what your saying I’m still psychotic and people just seem to ignore it and refrain from talking about it.
Good that you’re making progress to get better!
I’ve been getting breaks from whatever it is I go through, but at times it comes back and gets bad. Its been on and off for a few years.
Great to hear you’re moving so positively in the right directlon. There will be days when things don’t go so well - but keep these positive thoughts in mind and keep working on it!
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Glad you are having a good day :)))
the telepathy should go away eventuall voices probably will first.
I’d say enjoy the calm that you can… nurture it and it will grow.
The telepathy might fade… but it might take a long time. But as long as you can find ways to combat that and not let it rip apart your peace and sanity… you’ve got this.
This is the best year of my life… but the kidnapper delusion is STILL with me… only it’s been fading a bit.
keep up the good work bryan. when i look back on some of my journals, i’m amazed at how out there i really was and when i think of some of the things i’ve done, again, can’t quite equate who i am now with who i was back then…and it could happen again. i don’t think i’d fall for the telepathy thing again but a new one is free energy that they try and convince me of but it’s not working. i’m staying grounded and not believing any of it. my late husband used to say about the voices and delusions, always question what they try and get u to believe. think about where it might come from. i know that mine has come from my past, both fact and fiction. for instance, my dad asked me to invent perpetual motion when i was 16 years old and low and behold, according to the voices i’ve done something akin to it. my capgras delusion came from invasion of the body snatchers, a movie that scared me as a kid…all these things have a past, u just have to figure out what it is. stay strong hunni xxx