Sometimes not used to new people and feel awkward and don’t know what to say. It doesn’t help having sz. either. My brain seems foggy and forgets how to be cheerful or personable. Sometimes I suffer from anxiety attacks due to anxious thinking. Am feeling groggy too.
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I used to enjoy social outings, even networking in PR groups. But after being --tched too many times by the thought broadcasting stalkers and church hate mongers looking for ‘thieves’ among their ranks (trying to get off SSDI payments & work btw), is better to just avoid. Especially as I see more people joining the ranks of the hatred here and torturing the sex abuser’s victims and other females who refused sex with someone wealthy or ex-wives. Enjoyed a blog for a while until I saw group try to rip the woman off the web and looks like she was just left some kind of ‘sick city’ problem with lots of people who don’t mind harming someone who is on welfare. I don’t get involved here any longer as I want to work elsewhere and don’t want this kind of people looking me up for ruin. Was blackballed out of two professional networking groups on same day by different people and threatened about some choppy work I do not list on my resume as situation at some places is so bad would get sued. Happened to a few other victims of the sex abusers here and people had no clue what they were doing with a stranger who is just trying to work…It happens and this is a good situation in which to just stay out of it, study at home if needed and work remotes from internet.
Social situations here were just capturing slaves or mistresses for some of the wrong people and churches taking hostages to do dirty business favors & possibly harmed/robbed for leaving. So, I don’t even frequent same places much any longer. I go to occasional event and just stay out of rest. Just want to be able to work PT & left alone. Rest is thankless here in this ‘sick city’.
Tried moving 5+ times and tortured into coming back since I am female alone. Some towns around here are set up to use a female alone or torture her out…City has too many social problems to live safely there. This happened to some others from here - tried to move and ruined into returning to screwed up beginnings. Was told by someone in the know, you just note the blackballs and failed move on resume and list these as ‘social problems’ that keep you on the check living where no one will leave you alone to work. I’m too afraid to even ask a friend or former coworker for jobs where they work as these nutty church situations will even ruin someone who got you hired.
It just doesnt work for me. I have alogia makes it impossible to connect socialize.