I have never needed glasses. Now my vision is apparently 20/50 out of the blue. But I think it’s the medication that’s making it bad. I don’t know what to do.
I had a moment earlier where my right eye got super blurry like it was out of focus. It passed but it made me wonder what the deal was. Haven’t really heard about that being a side effect.
Sometimes things really are separate issues, not everything is cause by medication.
I’d consult with a professional, they’ll be able to point you in the right direction.
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I spoke to someone who has schizophrenia and an IQ of 150 who has a photographic memory, and yet refuses to take Abilify for the same reason I hate it. It dulls him. It makes him essentially numb, flat, and vacant. I smoked weed every day for a year and that seemed to help, to an extent. But now that I’ve quit weed the symptoms are returning, among lessened depression. I just don’t know anymore. Maybe I should call it quits. I’m sick of being sick. I’m sick of this game. I am not prone to paranoia. I’m prone to defensiveness, and inability to cope with my emotions because they’ve been under a fog of medication for the past ten or more years. Now that I’m realizing this, and no longer am self-medicating with weed, I have no idea what to do! I am feeling suicidal again too, but weed didn’t make me suicidal it helped with that. If I just stuck to weed, nothing was bad I was just irritable and it no longer did anything for me other than made me feel irritable and somewhat down. I think I’ve been normal for a long time, and this lie of schizophrenia and all the strings attached, regardless of the label, has caused me to self-stigmatize and I no longer need this lie to keep me grounded.
I need freedom from this illness. I want freedom from it and I want it now.
I understand what you feeling and thinking there. It’s tough but it’s not worth throwing your life away. I’d stay away from pot and try to get where you want to be through psychological training. You can feel however you want to feel.
Be strong and explore your options. You’ll find ways of getting to where you want to be.
I’m sorry you have this illness. Sorry medications aren’t perfect cure alls.
Drugs are bad. It’s a stupid dependency to have. You’ll just be wasting your money.
If you ever want to chat just send me a pm. I wouldn’t mind hearing about you or your illness and I’m always looking for friends.
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This is the fourth or fifth time a psychiatrist has canceled on me out of the blue. It’s the second time for my new psychiatrist, in a row. It’s been two or more months since my last appointment and he’s not concerned. I wonder if that means he thinks I’m not sick?
That’s pretty unprofessional and inconsiderate on his part to let you go without care.
I haven’t seen my doc in months though. She gave me enough refills to last half a year. I’ll only go back when I need more meds.
I have a month’s supply that I’ve been rationing for the past three months. You might be right. I’m just tired of trying to find a good psychiatrist here. I need to go out of state, pretty much, to find an adequate one.
A strange thought occurred to me. Who in society takes the burden of proof about schizophrenia? Who is there to tell someone or if you’re seeking approval or answers, who do you ask? Does it matter to anyone that some human beings wish to be un-diseased? To be completely recovered? Should that have ever been a goal if they were trying to help, you would think so right?
Maybe I’m one of those few that no one cares whether or not they ever recovered? Maybe I’m just someone who they wanted to use or didn’t care enough about?
They don’t know how to cure it that why they don’t make promises or even encourage you think that way. They are evil or careless they just don’t understand the illness and they now that in over half of the cases in this illness there is no returning to normal. The docs suck. Just use them to get your meds. They are knowledgable in the med arena and can help you make the right choice.
I would take some time off from anything that stresses you out and try and rebuild yourself until your functioning normally.
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I think they’re coming closer to a cure and I feel it will be available soon, maybe within the next five years or so. I am as close to normal as I need to be, so I’m happy with that. Maybe my vision is just getting this way because I’m getting older etc. or something else. It’s really not even that bad. It was going to happen eventually, and I have glasses now.
Feel like I was just whining, not intentionally being that way. I shouldn’t complain. I get passionate about fairness and people being given the same opportunities, so maybe I need to stop thinking that way.
Medicine is a good thing. Shamanism doesn’t cure it as far as I know tbh. Magical thinking is only healthy in small doses.
I’m going to continue to abstain from alcohol and other things as well. I did drink last night, for the first time in months and months. Like I let loose and drank, and then I felt stupid because i never enjoy drinking and it’s not for me. Nothing bad happened. It’s just really pointless to do something socially if you don’t need it in your life, weed and alcohol have been removed from my life along with the people who use them for recreation. I’ve had to cut ties with people recently over this sort of pressure to do them.
Yeah I had to throw out magical thinking entirely. It can be entertaining at times and I think there is a good need to be able to understand it but to seriously believe in magic is ridiculous especially for a schizo.
You seem to be feeling a little better. That makes me happy.
Your eye doctors or perhaps digging around on the Internet might give you insight to what’s happening with your vision. It’s good to stay ahead of these things.
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I sometimes think about quitting my med’s, but experience has taught me that for me that is not a good option. I’m on drugs that do me okay, so I’m going to leave well enough alone.
Honestly I’ve just been dealing with a bit of stress lately. I had to stop hanging out with bad influences. I have a court date that I may have to testify in as a witness. I’m kind of obsessing about it and it’s making me edgy. It shouldn’t get in the way of it all, but on top of that my psychiatrist had to cancel the second time in a row, which was rude and upset me so did the woman who called to tell me who was rude like she didn’t seem to understand how this mattered at all and I was wasting her time by her even having to call me. My mom also has a court date and ranted a couple times about how she’s afraid she’s going to be jailed or institutionalized.
But I’m dealing ok…it’s just the guilt. The feeling I have to be made to feel guilty for my actions that I’ve risen above, to testify all my messups in court which basically makes me feel responsible for not doing the right thing to stop the abuse. It just hurts. I have no one to talk to even my lawyer who hasn’t called or anything, it’s all stressing me out. Like I’m going to have to testify in a murder trial because I witnessed the accused murderer at his house three or four days before it happened, because I panicked and left that house and all the drugs and ■■■■■■■■ and was tricked into going there in the first place to bring a friend to a dentist’s appointment, to find out this dude who murdered my friend was getting her to sell his prescriptions for him!! To think about how she died.
I’m sorry. It’s just too much. Then my mom being hospitalized for a trespassing charge? Then the cops turning around trying to charge one of my friends with trespassing because he opened the door to the man’s house? And all the questions about everything it’s just tormenting me!!
So really, this isn’t just about schizophrenia. Its about feeling defenseless and hurt. I want to be proud of myself. I don’t understand how people can be so cold and cruel.
Hey @StarryNight - I personally would stay away from all drugs and booze - You might start feeling better overall after a while.
Meds and drugs dont mix, and could actually make you feel worse in the long run.
You seem to be sticking with Abilify, yet you complain that it is damaging your eyesight - I know from first hand experience, Abilify is really a benign drug for the body - others may or may not be worse for you physically, it depends.
There are other meds out there, that could help your symptoms, if you feel that Abilify is not the drug for you.
But as far as physical side effects - Abilify is not so bad - there are harsher drugs out there.
Yeah it seems that you are under some stress, stress can set you back a bit.
Try to take it easy as much as possible, until it blows over - Best of luck to you
I’m done talking about this.
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When I was on Clozaril my eyesight changed. I needed to get reading glasses to wear on top of my contacts. It was so frustrating. Once I stopped taking the med, my vision returned in about a month. I think because its so sedating it relaxes the eye muscles.
My doctor told me that it was drug abuse that had caused me suffer what i am suffering mentally. So check with your do please about using weed. All the best
my vision has definitely gotten worse since i got sick, i have glasses now.
Just on your eyes , I assume you got them tested? Have you? They will be able to spot some problems. Get your blood pressure and glucose levels tested , this can also effect sight. Before you give up on meds try to find out if you have atreatable condition causing your vision problems.