Yeah my pdoc waited quite awhile before we tried zyprexa because of the weight gain issue. I gained a little under ten pounds so far, but I’m under weight lol so if anything it’s kinda helpful, I hope to gain more weight but that my cholesterol and everything stays okay, also I’ve heard zyprexa causing diabetes. I liked abilify but my body just couldn’t handle it even at a low dose. Geodon was a nightmare
California, northern that is…
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I TAKe 400mg seroquel
pm and 3mg rexulit in the morning
that’s a constant day to day question .
I’m on meds and not in the midst of a severe psychotic episode. I feel pretty normal. Some weird things still happen and I still have conversations through the radio with Shadow Man.
It’s when the symptoms like hallucinations and delusions ramp up that my psychiatrist says I’m on the cusp of a relapse. But I don’t live in fear of it happening. It would be inconvenient because I need to be able to work, I need the money, but I don’t fear it, that would just add stress and increase the likelihood of a relapse happening.
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I’m not on meds currently. My “normal” state is experiencing mild psychotic symptoms daily. So I will get visual hallucinations, talk with voices (though they are not very loud when I’m not in an episode and I can generally choose to ignore them when I feel like it) and occasionally get odd thoughts in my head that I can recognize as delusional. I can also still sense energy around me in this state. Sometimes I get the odd bout of paranoia if something sets it off. I also get violent or disturbing intrusive thoughts that are pretty constant as well as hypersensitivity to pretty much all sensory stimuli but I don’t attribute that to psychosis I feel that comes from my ptsd… At my best I have all this and I am not depressed and have decent energy.
That’s not really how this semester has been going for me. I’ve been staving off depression and have extreme fatigue and sleepiness that is pretty much causing me to fail or barely pass all my classes rn.
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I’m surprised to hear that you deal with all that. I would not know based on your writing that you had experiences like those
Yes. I hate going to the hospital
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I’m still having mild psychosis. I haven’t had a total meltdown yet, but I’ve been experiencing auditory hallucinations since early November. I’m scared of losing it and having a total meltdown.
Yeah generally people are bewildered when I start talking about the experiences I’ve had since I seem very upbeat and regular.
I am a strange person.
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Haha. That’s very funny. embrace your strangeness. I’m a little strange too but I used to be pretty normal. After being batshit crazy for 15 years I’ve developed some strange ideas.
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I think about it sometimes but I don’t dwell on it. I made it through psychotic episodes twice and survived, once when I was initially diagnosed for two years in 1980 and then a relapse in 1989 that lasted about a year.
I survived those, hopefully I can survive another. But I don’t feel in imminent danger of becoming psychotic.
Hell, maybe I’ve been psychotic for 35 years. I can’t tell.
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I have to be very cautious of living with thin boundaries that border on fear, because,
boundaries tend to get blurry on bad days,
and,
it takes your time better spent on being more positive and productive.
I don’t fear it because I believe I’ve built a big enough support and knowledge base to be prepared if something does arise.
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I don’t fear it really.Even though I’ve been psychotic before.
Yea bu it sucks so bad. I have no idea why it keeps coming back