Are you scared of another psychotic break? Is that how they get you to take these god forsaken anti-psychotics? Is that what plays into your constant anxiety?
Yes im scared. Im just as scared of antipsychotics though. It is kind of a draw. Im anxious easily anyway.
On the other hand im not at all scared of things some other people are scared of, which is rather odd. Reorganisation and possibility to lose my job? Everyone is very worried except me. Hitchhiking alone through Tibet? No problem. Walking alone through a dark alley in a bad neighbourhood? Shrugs.
I’m with @anon73478309. I’m super anxious. Scared of a relapse, scared of the meds. Scared of something happening to my kids. Totally not scared of dying, walking outside in the dark alone, inner city streets, or the woods.
I am more scared of another psychotic break than I used to be, just because the Zyprexa has been such a miracle for me. I was on three other APs and was still very sick, now the Zyprexa has me practically normal functioning for the past three months.
I know I’m still sick underneath that though, and I am worried about all the goodness being taken away from me again. If the Zyprexa lets another psychotic break come through, I am in big trouble. I wouldn’t know how to handle it at all. I am also job hunting to get off disability, I would be in a lot of pain if I had to be psychotic while working again.
I have to just trust in the miracle of the Zyprexa to keep me well.