I bet you have been under a lot of stress lately. There has been SO much change so quickly in your life. I bet even if you didn’t have SZ, having that much change in anyones life must feel confusing. Give yourself time to heal.
You have the credentials and knowledge. You might not have your exact old life back, but I bet as you get money through this job, you can build yourself back up to use your skills and knowledge in other ways.
Make a new life. There are lots of people who want a new life. It’s normal to miss an old life I bet. You knew where you were going, and you knew what you wanted to be and how to get there… But now it’s all up in the air. I can understand if your nervous and don’t like the uncertainty. I don’t think something worse is coming your way. You’re working so hard at healing. I think things are going to get better for you.
If you do forget what you have in mind easily, is there a way you can write it down? I forget some of my life plans and then I have to go back and read the plan I wrote down. Even these past few months, my plans have changed due to opportunity’s that have happened along this new path.
When I first really started talking to you, your parents were drifting from you and you were scared that you might be homeless. Now your Mom is talking to you and will hold your hand and trying to treat you better and you have this job and you’re eating.
I know you might feel so sad at what might have been. But I’m on the outside of your life looking in and it looks like you are working hard to heal and you will get better.
I’m rooting for you…