My sisters pointed out that I am doing a lot of things right. I signed up for a class, I got a car and a good place to live, a job, and two new separate support groups. But I am going through some incredibly hard personal problems. My coping mechinisems are failing me, and everything that worked for me whole life are now being exposed and doesn’t work anymore. It feels naked and raw when I’m with other people. Even my sisters who are pretty cool can’t help but see through a lot of my bulls*it. It’s like I didn’t deal with life as I was growing up and now it’s come back to haunt me. It doesn’t feel good.
Ah, well, there are some good things in my life, I should feel grateful instead of angry and stressed. Off to work tomorrow, the weekend will be here before I know it. I plan to check out the park near my new house and take a walk around it on Saturday. Not everything is hopeless, I’ll just have to muddle through these problems the best I can.
Hopefully Nami can give you some more coping skills and support. Would be the place to go to get the most up to date information on other programs on mental health available in your area to help you also.
Hey! You’re stealin’ my story, gawdammit. (I have exclusive rights on this intellectual property, ya know.)
I guess you’ll have to sue me.
We’ll negotiate the usage rights. Have your attorney call mine.
I’m glad your new place is working out… I know it feels bitter when you think your moving forward but your really standing still…
I think your using a good coping tool right now… don’t stress and look at the small pleasures that are going right.
New place… nice new park… new support groups… I hope you feel better soon.
I’m feeling a bit one step forward two steps back too… just having a hard time getting through a simple day… every thing feels so heavy.
But we’ll both get through it… nothing last forever…even a worn out mood.
Have you tried using any Sarcosine yet? I found it to be helpful in ways I can’t really explain because it seems complex in affecting my brain in different ways. The overall effect is feeling a bit addicted to it only because of it’s benefits to overall mental awareness and positive attitude in thought processing. I have ordered it twice already from the same company in different quantities and am going to try it from a different company this time just to have a comparison. I still take 2mg of Risperdal a day as well.
I says look on the bright side ,if you can make a change for the better and have the facilities available to you and use those facilities for your betterment then that is waay cool as long as it doesn’t effect anyone else.
**I guess we all have to keep becoming “aware” all our lives. To me, it`s more spiritual in nature as I get older. AND it gets easier to get through too! One good thing about getting older!
Hope your enjoying your new place! **
Keep thinking positively, 77nick77. You are doing the right things by moving to a new place. Don’t think everybody is going to using you or stuff like that. You will be OK.
This could be a good excuse to “reinvent yourself” @77nick77 drawing from all your life’s experiences and finding a more “comfortable fit” that works for you.
Besides, nothing worse than an “mature” man that won’t stop acting like a teenager, …that is, except
the old bat (woman) that still wears miniskirts and tank tops and forgot to look in the mirror.