List of all 47 of different types of symptoms I have (had)

[Rei26]

Positive:

1. "Sounds" that I can sense (including a “voice” that I can sense)

2. A voice that I can hear in my mind

3. A voice that I can hear in real sounds (like in the sound of chewing food)

4. Auditory hallucinations (including voices that are like real sounds, which are rare)

5. Auditory “vibes” (a sound effect; rare; my schizophrenia can add a certain “vibe” to real sounds, for example it can make music sound like death)

6. Auditory vibes for sounds in my mind (rare; my schizophrenia can add a certain “vibe” to the voices, to make them sound especially threatening, superior, etc)

7. Mental images

8. Visual hallucinations (have seen only a few times)

9. Visual vibes for objects (a visual effect; my schizophrenia can make an object look especially terrifying, horrible, etc)

10. Visual vibes for mental images (my schizophrenia can add a certain “vibe” to a mental image, to make it express a situation, emotion, etc; I’ve seen grinning aliens that look especially ‘mocking’, a scientist with a profound visual vibe of ‘intelligence’ added to it, and others)

11. Visual vibes for me (my schizophrenia can apply a “vibe” to my entire visual field, expressing an emotion or situation, like ‘worried’, ‘terrified’, etc)

12. Visual vibes for an imaginary person inside me (same as previous, except it seems/feels like it is meant for another person inside me; it can be ‘disappointed’, ‘cruel’, etc. Maybe it’s meant to show that imaginary person’s attitude towards me)

13. Fake focus (a visual effect)

14. Lucid dream like reality (happened once)

15. Nonvivid perception of the world (One of the earliest symptoms. Initially I didn’t realize I had that (possibly had it for a long time). I only noticed it once it, along with some other symtoms, suddenly disappeared and then a few seconds later reappeared again. This happened a few times.)

16. Disturbed breathing (same as previous)

17. Being mentally burdened or blocked by something (same as previous)

18. Olfactory hallucination (happened once - I felt an intense smell of ‘enemy’)

19. Olfactory/gustatory vibes (has happened a few times; my schizophrenia can make food taste or smell like death)

20. Dreams produced by my schizophrenia

21. Sleep induced by my schizophrenia (theoretical; sometimes I seem to fall asleep for just a few seconds, apparently to see a dream, and then wake up; often happens repeatedly)

22. A feeling of my body being controlled by something else (happened in 2017)

23. Strange (sometimes also intelligent) behavior (my schizophrenia makes my body do things I’d never do. I also have new reflexes, and sometimes my speech has been unlike my own)

24. Fake will (it feels like I wanted to do something, or did something, but actually I didn’t)

25. Fake beliefs (it can make me believe in strange things; quite rare)

26. Fake memory (rare - only one certain fake memory, 2 possible fake memories)

27. Fake conscience (it has a distinct feeling to it, and it says whether I would do something (normally bad thing) or not. For example, one time it claimed that I consented to torturing someone, and felt like it too)

28. Inserted thoughts and concepts (they can be smarter than me, and there is a whole variety of different ones by their feeling and type)

29. Alien feelings (feelings I’ve never felt before schizophrenia came; examples: an unbearable feeling of pure torment, bad beauty, various fake feelings, etc)

30. Crying controlled by my schizophrenia (not randomly; my schizophrenia can make me cry at will; often when it happens the voice will tell something like “We’re going to make you cry now”)

31. Laughing/smiling/grinning controlled by my schizophrenia (same as previous)

Negative:

32. Anhedonia (no motivation, no anticipatory pleasure (wanting), no consummatory pleasure (liking))

33. Musical anhedonia

34. No pleasant taste (occasional; my schizophrenia can apparently remove it whenever it decides to)

35. No emotions or feelings (except for pain, the senses, and alien feelings)

36. Blank mind (no thoughts at all, except for the occasional inserted/fake thoughts)

37. No will (I’m unable to move my body, I’m unable to want anything (I can’t even want the unpleasant feelings to go away when they come))

38. Inability to understand things (like speech or text; occasional; my schizophrenia can turn this on/off whenever it decides to)

39. Troubles with learning and reading - (Existed alongside with symptoms number 16, 17 and 18. This one was one of the earliest obvious symptoms, becoming obvious in a strange way - I didn’t realize I had that problem (possibly had it for a long time). I only noticed it once that problem, along with some other symtoms, suddenly disappeared and then a few seconds later reappeared. This happened a few times.)

Not sure if positive or negative:

40. My body appears to move on its own (not a belief or feeling, but a lack of feeling of intentional movement)

41. Electronic devices apparently being controlled by a mysterious force/cause (happened in 2017; possible causes: coincidences, hallucinations, fake memories, or paranormal. Year 2017 has been wiped away from my memory, I only know about this from my notes. I wrote in my notes “apparently”, which is why I did not include ‘delusional belief’ in the possible causes)

42. Other people apparently being controlled by a mysterious force/cause (happened in 2017, and later; possible causes: coincidences, hallucinations, fake memories, extrasensory perception, or paranormal control.)

43. Apparent cases of extrasensory perception (possible causes: coincidences, extrasensory perception, or paranormal control).

Neither:

44. Intelligently controlled symptoms (one example - in the hospital I was tortured with an unbearable feeling, unless I was walking, or “on some important business” (like eating, going to the bathroom, or talking to the doctor). My schizophrenia intelligently recognized what I was doing, and applied or removed/reduced the torture accordingly.)

45. Causal connections between symptoms (I have at least 5 different symptoms controlled/coordinated by 1 thing; examples: voice knowing in advance and telling me what my body is about to do, voice knowing in advance and telling me what I’m going to see in a dream, etc)

46. My schizophrenia has a different type of memory available to it, than the long-term memory of my brain

47. Resistance to antipsychotics (7 different ones, and clozapine could not be used) and electroconvulsive therapy

[Rei26]

Forgot one:

• Pacing (had it when I was tortured with the unbearable feeling, which apparently forced me to walk all day long, every day, for months)

That makes a total of 48 types of symptoms.

[saynow]

go to court
you r not ill
judge them who you suspect they r source of all these garbage

[Rei26]

More:

• No sexual arousal

• Women no longer look attractive or pretty

• Fake recall - my schizophrenia can recall (moments, feelings, other) things that happened in the past; different from real recall

• Fake imagination - my schizophrenia can imagine feelings and different situations; different from real imagination

52 different types of symptoms. I wonder if any other person with schizophrenia on this planet can beat that.

[Om_Sadasiva]

How can you remember all these? My memory is bad

[Rei26]

Took a while to gather them (from earlier posts, notes, and memory).

[Rei26]

Wrote them down as they came to my mind, the rest came from earlier posts and notes

[daydreamer]

I think at my worse i had quite a lot of symptoms but i couldn’t name them all just the main ones probably.

paranoia. delusions, social isolation, withdrawal, tv, impotence, loads but i cant be bothered looking them all up

[Rei26]

3 more:

• Social isolation - there is simply no point in doing anything other than lying in the bed all day, because of anhedonia and no emotions. Nothing is interesting, funny or entertaining any more.

• Inability to control my body - sometimes my schizophrenia prevents me from doing things I would do in a situation. Sometimes the voice says “We know you would have done it, but we’re just not going to.” in the sense that “they” are controlling my body

• Stuttering - while in the hospital, there was a lot of stuttering while speaking; now that problem has disappeared

55 now

[Rei26]

• Experienced tactile hallucinations for the first time today. A voice appeared to be doing it.

• Confusion - My schizophrenia can induce confusion in me about some particular things. For example, it can make me not understand whether the hot plate is connected to the power outlet or not (even if I can see the plug being out of the socket), it can make me not understand whether time is past 8 PM or not, and it can make me confused about whether I am currently speaking or not. It doesn’t do it always, but occasionally to mess with me.

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