Do you know when you’re going to have an auditory hallucination? Sometimes my ears will ring or hum for a second or two before I hear another hallucination. Today, I’m hearing a lawn mower that isn’t on just faintly in the background.
Do you feel that your illness has become worse over the years? Mine has and that makes me fearful of the future. I would consider myself a mild case with the hallucinations but I’m definitely paranoid, have a lot of magical thinking and mood swings. I have a lot of flat affect going on and I’ve have had a steady increase of issues as time passes. I just wonder if it’s going to get worse; I’m 35 and I’ve had a steady decline since 29 and more symptoms than ever. I was reading that some people get worse, some stay the same and some improve. Has anyone become worse over 35?
Hope everyone is having a good day. I’m feeling pretty drugged from meds and down in the dumps. I think I have a hard time accepting my diagnosis at times; it looks like today is one of those days.
Sz is typically not degenerative. Especially when you are focusing on recovery and management. No drugs aside from meds.
I’ve been staying on my meds… clean and sober… working toward getting my symptoms under control and have been getting better… I feel mentally stronger.
As far as the voices… before they were just constant chatter with no warning… but lately… when I’m getting an anxiety spike or a stress spike… that opens the door.
As far as hallucinations go… the voices can get really annoying… and the tactile ones can get a bit out of hand and odd too… but big visual ones upset me the most.
As far as my mood swings… my doc and I are discussing a mood stabilizer. After the few weeks I’ve just had… I’m ready now.
I hear ya about getting worse as getting older. It seems that mole hills are turning into foothills. More bothers me now than ever used to, and it takes longer for me to bounce back. The tdoc and I are working on changing my perspective to one of less calamity to one of more peace. Pdoc says that sometimes treatment resistant disorder has more “back sliding” than others.
I’m still working with my therapist to get over come catastrophic thinking.
I can get caught in that loop of panic all to easily and almost throw myself into an anxiety attack and then panic episode. Those can be pretty destabilizing. It has helped getting a more peaceful mind set.
I make better decisions when I’m not in a panic.