When I was in my teens, I was very prodromal with a very bad case of bulimia as my main symptom. I was also very isolated and alone with no friends.
In my 20’s, I suddenly became psychotic on my first day of nursing school. I suspected what was happening and I hid it from my teachers and kept it under wraps for 2 years while finishing my associates degree. If my psychosis had been discovered, I would have been evicted from the school, back in the early 80’s as it were.
In my early 30’s, I suddenly became extremely depressed and suicidal in response to a letter I received from my ex husband. I threatened suicide and landed in the hospital. This was the first of many revolving door hospitalizations from 1991 to 2005, when they ended. Almost all the hospitalizations were for either a suicide attempt or ideations.
At age 45, in 2005, all my depression and suicidality came to an abrupt halt. I was still very paranoid however with symptoms of psychosis such as telepathy, thought insertions, broadcasting and control, and delusions of reference.
Umm… well, I was diagnosed sz when I was 22, then sza when I was 25… now I am 27.
I can’t absorb new information like I used to, I have pretty bad memory, my delusions and or thoughts about past breaks kind of mess with me a bit… make it harder to live a normal life.
I don’t really hear voices anymore and I don’t have visual hallucinations anymore.
The doctors say its getting worse. I feel fine most times just completely catatonic or in another reality. I’m trying this New med out hopefully I recover and can go back into society since I’m more of a hermit. Lol : )
It’s gotten easier for me as I got older. A lot of things started getting better after I met my GF twenty or so years ago. She eventually sobered me up and has been very kind and patient with me.
I still hear voices, but since I realized I had to take my meds religiously and as directed, my life has improved drastically. The side effects and negative symptoms gradually decreased and in a lot of ways, I’m happier then even before the voices started.
Once you learn to accept that you have a real medical illness that requires lifelong treatment, it gets easier and easier. And above all you need to learn to be kind to yourself.
When it started at 23 I was young and psychically strong but my mind was jello. So as I went through my 20’s I’d do major physical feats like walking or biking for many miles in spite of the insomnia while flunking out of school or not being able to hold down a job. By my late 20’s I was able to start working due to an improvement in my meds. However it was volunteer, and the meds began to increase my weight steadily.
In my 30’s after years of practically being ignored by the opposite sex two 23 year old women showed some interest. However I had failed to leave my Mother’s house and was in bad shape vocationally, socially, and mobility wise and both relationships failed miserably. I did however reach the height of my vocation skills working as a VISTA volunteer for 3 years.
In my 40’s I went back to school and obtained a associate’s degree and got an apartment. However my father’s death combined with a bad drug change and some drug abuse led to a relapse and 4 psych ward appearances which destroyed my desire to succeed in life. I also had no more serious attention from the opposite sex.
In my 50’s I went to a group home and can only say I survived the pandemic. . My weight ballooned and I became diabetic. Now I am trying to get back in shape but having a difficult time However my voices have never been better. On the rare occasion they do speak we tend to get along a lot better than we did. I do have troubles with the negative symptoms however.
I was 30 years old when first diagnosed medically, but suffered for many years before that. I’m 51 years old now and still suffer from delusions, paranoid thinking and lack of motivation. Hopefully as I grow older symptoms will get less severe.
İ was diagnosed at the age of 30 now i m 39 but i used to have severe depression and mild paranoia since my teenage.but after i began to treatment my depression mostly lost.but i have still some paranoias and hypocondriac fears.
Basically when I go off my meds I start thinking strangely and believe things that aren’t true. My doctor just tells me to stay on my meds, he says I might always be this way no matter my age.
This is my first post so forgive me if I am doing something incorrectly. Please let me know if I’m doing anything wrong.
I was in my mid twenties when I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. I was very ill. I was in a state hospital. I was then in and out of the hospitals for so very long. I should have stayed on olanzapine (one of my 3 antipsychotic pills I take) and saved myself heartache. I have been hospital free for maybe 5 years now though.
I am now 37. I have developed bad memory, cognitive, motivation, and emotional numbness and negative symptoms as I’ve gotten older. I did not have this when I was younger. I hate to see others have similar issues. But I am relieved to know I’m not alone. Very relieved in fact. I thought I was losing my mind.
I do also continue to have bad paranoia and hear voices too.
My delusions have gotten better I just realized. I haven’t gotten a message on the TV or radio in maybe months now. Before, I was getting them regularly. It was scary.
I used to see different colored insects coming down in my home but now I just see them briefly out of the corner of my eye. Like if I am really stressed I might see them. Otherwise I don’t see things much anymore.
So, I guess some things are better. Some are the same. Some have gotten worse for me. I hope that helps. Let me know if you have any more questions. (Oh. I am also sober as well.)
