I used to believe certain things that aren’t true. But some thing I still believe are true
I think the people who dealt with me before my meds wouldn’t recognize me now
I’m guessing those men hate me and it makes me sad.
I feel badly that I led those men astray with my beliefs.
I’m sure it severely affected their lives.
They still follow me and I feel bad about it.
I respect them and am grateful for their service to our country.
That’s all I can say I guess.
Don’t be too hard on yourself. Before the right meds were started, i was out of control and think i really got some folks hating on me. I threatened people and was very rude to others. I think the right meds and just time to mature were what helped me…but it’s not going to fix the relationships that i messed up forever. I just have to do better and be a nicer person than i used to be.
It’s remarkable how persistent those delusions can be.
For me they clear up after a couple of months.
Moved to Unusual Beliefs.
Oops. Thanks.
I should say I’m told the men aren’t real.
But even tonight, the men sent a man to follow me and watch me when my husband took me out for dinner tonight.
He was especially watching when my husband and I were both thinking the lady asked for his license when she said “can I see your card”?
And meant credit card lol!
Anyway, it’s so hard to accept that this guy who watched us so closely had nothing to do with the men.
In their defense, I used to think I worked for the CIA. It was triggered when I was doing research in college and some people genuinely wanted to see my research.
Unfortunately it sent me down a horrible path of delusional thinking.
They came to hear my defense of my thesis, and took my research but that’s it.
I did not work for the CIA after that.
But I still believe that the men who follow me as a result of me thinking I worked for the CIA are really following me.
I have no idea how to make it go away.
Any suggestions?
CBT and med increase or switch
I’ve done both. So far I’ve tried like almost 15 APs. I’ve been doing CBT the last 10 years
I’m sorry CoCo. I hope this goes away for you soon.
Your delusions are stubbornly persistent @LilyoftheValley
Maybe it’s time for you to try clozapine?
I don’t know what else to say
I’ve had severe delusions one that still sticks with me was the time i thought i was being video taped and put on the internet I was at my home HOWEVER it’s just a delusion trust me your not alone in this especially here
Idk if this helps but I’m just letting you know people care about you I care about you
I’m told I’m not a good candidate for that drug because of my health conditions
Thanks so much @anon24748973
Just be glad yours are only delusions… Living the real nightmare is much harder
For me, regular meditation for 1 hour daily for 1 year helped in preventing delusions.
After regularly meditating for 1 year, whenever a delusional thought occurs in my mind, I become aware of it in the first few seconds itself and I start meditating. So that delusional train of thought breaks.
Nowadays, I rarely get delusional thoughts.
Having regular daily stress without 1 day break also increased delusions in the past for me. The less stressed I was, the less delusions I had. Nowadays I am not stressed at all, so there are no delusions.
@Suspense6929 i got out of practicing meditation but it does help me clear my thoughts when I do. Maybe I’ll try to start up again
nobody has said this yet…there ARE NO AGENTS watching you. you have residual paranoia not affected by your meds…sad. sorry you still suffer from this, your post seemed to be written to please the men you think are following you…you are so lost and there’s nothing anybody can do I guess.
My most persistent delusion is my slight ideas of reference. Sometimes when I see someone smile or laugh I think it’s cause of me. Or I’ll hear someone in my neighborhood talking and my initial impression is it’s about me. Not as strong as it used to be. But ideas of reference are one of the main things I still kinda deal with.
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