I don’t think I can blame mania I don’t think I was ill. Yes I got obsessed with dating. Yes I’ve done really really disgusting things like shared pics via phone. Feel like a whore I only slept with a guy once though but I feel disgusted With my thoughts. I mean just now one of them found me on social media asked me to add him but I said wasn’t interested even to be friends and blocked. These days I date but I just don’t feel the same high in it I guess it’s good in a way but there’s zero buzz I get from it.
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I’d say I’m more reserved now reveal less of personal things to people and to be honest I’m " boring ". I haven’t done anything stupid like the above in months.
Is anyone else not disgusted by this?
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None of that sounds disgusting or really bad…your too hard on yourself…
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Pics as in unclothed pics.
I guess if none of this sounds bad then i don’t need the Meds cos the reason I got put on them was cos I got disinhibited
I know 
I would advise people not to do it, but only because it could be shared without consent.
I think nakedness is healthy, and there’s nothing wrong with flirting that way.
edit: unless the person you sent them too was married, or didn’t want to see them for some other sensible reason
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Maybe … dunno why the doc would put me on mood stabilisers then. 
Life sucks more then it did.
Well I’m not going to try second-guessing him, but you are entitled to ask him why.
He could just be a prude!
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It sounds like classic bipolar symptoms to me.
As for the pictures, most people do “sexting” nowadays so there’s no reason to look down on yourself because of it. Why should you feel ashamed about it anyways? It’s the natural state in which you were born. I wouldn’t advise people to send revealing pictures of themselves to strangers, but only because the stranger could potentially use the picture to blackmail them.
Whatever guys you sent the pictures to have probably been sent nude pictures from many other women online. There’s no reason to worry about it. Even if they were leaked, who cares? There’s so much erotica freely available on the internet nobody is going to pay attention to your pictures. The only way this could come back and bite you on the ass is if you’re considering running for elected office in the future.
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I’ve done stupid things that I regretted, but they were of a different type. It seems to me like you have a need to punish yourself. Maybe you could check into that in therapy.
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Probably more people than you think have done that, have to be careful who you share with now a days, but don’t beat yourself up over it. Doing adult activities is perfectly normal and nothing to be ashamed of.
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I think the problem is if it’s distressing to you, and it was.
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I hear a lot on this site about people doing things they regret and looking for an answer in the forum about how to deal with the guilt. Time and time again people encourage people that it’s ok to do that. I think we feel guilty for a reason. It’s healthy that we have boundaries of morality. I think it’s great that you’re not numb to your actions. I don’t think it is healthy for you to just change your mind about what you think is moral because everyone else is doing it. I commend you that what you may have decided is immoral despite what society says, still in this day brings you guilt. To live a healthy lifestyle we need to live in our parameters of our morality ,that deep down is written on our heart by God himself. I think your morality is pretty high and you should be commended . From someone who is guilty of doing much worse than you have done. I can testify that God is a perfect forgiver of those that are repentant, and it sounds like you are. Don’t be so hard on yourself we all screw up .
Have to agree with it, you have lived and grown and set boundaries you can live with, should be proud of yourself
You’re an attractive girl I think you’re just worrying about yourself all the time no one cares and not even you should don’t sweat it, I thought I was sick in the head but if no one knows it don’t matter
This post makes me question the mental status of every woman that ever sent me a sexy photo
Just be careful with sharing your personal self, it’s meant to be a special thing with someone you really trust and hopefully mutual love and connection.
But don’t beat yourself up over past mistakes, let it go, forgive yourself, but make the necessary changes and you will feel liberated in the end 
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Try not to torture yourself over stuff you did when you where a lot younger. How you where at 19 is totally different than in your 30’s. We can all have a good hard look at ourselves (soul searching) Just don’t be too hard on yourself.
I’ll state the obvious here. Sex aint bad if done in moderation and done responsibly and you don’t degrade yourself. Naked pics aren’t bad per se if done properly.
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