If you don’t take steps now, Aziz, things are only going to get worse. My diabetes has recently worsened and now I’m not going to get to enjoy a lot of the foods I used to or I risk damaging my vision or losing a foot or something. If you continue on the path you are on of overeating, little activity and such, you are going to lose out on the things that you currently enjoy as well. Being way overweight with little activity is likely to have consequences as you get older.
You have to try or you’ll regret it later. I’m trying to fight a battle now that I couldve prevented if I had not allowed myself to go for so long. I’m trying to fight exhaustion from diabetes, negative symptoms and resist urges to eat the wrong things. Trust me on this.
I reasearched negatives since getting them after switching from Abilify to Risperidone. I was already disabled in bed before reading about them. Actually its my pdoc who first taught me about them and said that its low dopamine in some brain parts. He said when they invented APs some patients recovered from positives but were not functional in society due to negatives.
Its not that I am not willing, but rather I can’t on my current meds, I improved when I reduced my dose or if I switch to Abilify or if I take dopamine supplements.
I don’t feel suicidal. I told my Dr to prescribe me ADs but he refused and said I don’t have depression. I tried an AD supplement and it made me manic, hypersexual more precisely.
Haven’t been and seen my pdoc in almost a year… Tho I live with another pdoc who is my brother he prescribes the meds so I still get some. But having someone closely related as a therapist isn’t a good idea. So I haven’t had those sort of talks in almost a year. Lol.
You know what’s embarrassing? Procuring a huuuuuuuge bottle of pills and popping them all 'cuz this is the time you pull the plug for sure. Then you wake up the next morning and find an empty Flintstones Chewables bottle.
People have their own way to deal with things. Then they point out to others. As if it was something universal, working for everyone when in fact it’s not. Having negs isn’t an attitude problem.
As I know, only meds and time worked for my negative symptoms. But then I had to increase zyprexa so I’ve become a fat lazy zombie.
I’m stuck in my couch all day. Just recently I started enjoying music again. I still have difficulties watching movies because they are so long, I also play my switch, but that’s only for then minutes at a time.
What I’m saying is that I’m making progress. And so will you Aziz. Don’t give up hope!
