Its really hard to tell ppl ur bedridden

[anon8555347]

Yeah I’m usually just 24/7 at my parents home,
Just having a couple highmanic moments drinking caffeine and smoking 24/7.
Living out a world in my head.
Life always in my divergent mind, own causes and plays of life going on, suffocating in a dark place in my mind.

I smoke 24/7 heavy smoker.
I do go out like with my mom to grocery store, extended family to the movies or casino, brother to concerts etc, time from time.
On weekends I go to my parents beach house and I go fishing out on the boat,
Drink during the weekends.
And other events.
And that is basically my life.
Blessed to have these things still though,
I still have events in my life,
But as for life purpose and progression/
Social life as of currently,
Is as dead as trying to cure my head and rid this disease.

Its starting to come to picture that I may need to start to live in assistant living, case manager etc.

So I feel you and am in the same boat to some proportion.
Just loneliness and desensitizing and numbness. Tainted windows
Emptiness, hollowed out.
Teach me how to feel again.
Time died someday somewhere somehow

[zeno]

@Esm

I just lay there with my eyes closed.

Do you daydream?

[Esm]

Thats quite moving, i fear i may end up in assisted living too. I have a drinking problem. I can just barely find motivation to do ADLs. I just want to completly dissociate from day to day life and never have to do anything again. I cant say life is tollerable, but i been doing it 5 years, living with these severe problems, i found strength and will continue to keep finding it.

@zeno

Do you daydream?

I dont intentionally daydream, but thoughts pass in and out of my mind, none particularly insightful, but they are usually popping up.

[finally]

yeah I have physical disabilities too so much time in bed or sitting. Usually computer, book, movie or music. people visit and occasional small outings. Not a full life anymore but it is what it is so I’m trying to make the best of it now. Accepting it is what I’m trying to do I think. Might have to do assisted living or home healthcare.