After another episode today of very short breath with dizziness i visited my primary care provider and he laughed at the asthma diagnosis the ER and First Care gave me on Monday. He said they were idiots…i don’t have asthma at all, but COPD.
He gave me another breathing treatment, prescribed an antibiotic, prednisone, and an inhaler meant for COPD. Feeling a tiny bit better today but still not eating or sleeping much. I can eat foods i don’t have to chew like yogurt and cottage cheese and protein shakes. He said when this episode improves we’re doing a pulmonary function test in a couple of weeks.
I guess I’m not too surprised and kind of expected it after 30 years of smoking (i quit almost exactly a year ago). I’m refusing to use “Dr. Google” and will not do internet research on this since i know it’s bad and i tend to catastrophize…i will only ask my pcp the questions i have next week.
Honestly, I’m scared of a COPD diagnosis and what it’ll mean and, for just right now, i need to back off from it to maintain my currently good mental status. I don’t want to get depressed after being out of the hospital a week ago. But i am strong and will deal with it in increments.
Right now it’s about feeling better physically and getting my symptoms under control. I will see my counselor next week and get help processing it with her. It’s a bummer, but i am strong.
I am WhiteRaven…hear me roar (then cough and gasp for air!)…