Periods of total thoughtlessness. Being the perceiver in the shell. Mental barrage has worn me down. Everytime I think they call me stupid among other things. I recognize I’m losing part of myself but I’m actually looking forward to it. Kind of saw it coming, maybe then I’ll be able to relax instead of bouncing around. Maybe then the voices will shut up. Once I’m defeated and silent. Here’s to hoping.
This is what happens when you get sued by the thought police.
Good riddance dumb redundant self conscious and judgemental thoughts.
At my thoughtless moments, the first thought I think following them is “punish”. And I’m thinking the thoughts of punishment aren’t necessarily appropriate.
I used to recognize it breaking the silence with a thought of some sort. I’m slipping past that. It’s gonna become my default state though I can tell. This disease has transformed me.
These voices are ■■■■■■■ stupid. They just won’t let it go.
You’ll be cool as long as your thinking like that I mean you made through befor you can do it again.
It may not seems like it but you are pretty fortunate I go in and out of reality daily sometimes a few times a day.
I have moments where im like yeah dude its all in your head then maybe an hour later it starts up again and I analyze my life looking for confirmation.
Just stay grounded and ignore them as much as possible thats how I make it.I wouldn’t take what they say to heart though.
Just because its youe mind saying negative things that doesn’t mean its right.it seems like you think because its your mind that it knows you intimately maybe better than you consciously know yourself but keep in mind (well you know what I mean) thats its a misfiring part of your mind.
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