Every part of me feels it IS real. The demons voices are so clear and their energy so different from my own. Their intimidation hasn’t been working and they are mocking me saying they’ll just seduce me instead. Basically they go between threatening me and trying to seduce me as ways of getting me to do what they want and obey. Usually if one doesn’t work, they switch to the other and that works.
I’m scared.
Have you been able ask your psychiatrist about trying that medication that you mentioned?
No they’re closed on weekends can’t call them until tomorrow
Haldol probably won’t help anyways. I need something with high binding specificity to 5HT2A like Risperidone.
Would you like to elaborate on that to get your mind off your troubles a little, or would it just be more stress?
How can you know what specific dopamine receptor you need to help? I’m asking purely out of curiosity.
And @Hanna_Foxx this is based on purely speculative detective work. Risperidone for me was a totally unique experience because it totally got rid of all of my symptoms, which no other AP had done before or has done since then. I experienced what it was like to be “normal” for the first time in my life. I unfortunately had to go off of it due to serious side effects (Hyperprolactenemia-causes breast cancer). However I became, of course, very interested in why it worked for me when no other AP seemed to. I tried looking at every aspect of the medication, including the pharmacology.
The one area where Risperidone seemed to stand out from other APs was its uniquely high specificity for binding to the 5HT2A receptor, which is a serotonin receptor that hallucinogenics like LSD bind to & activate and is also thought to play a role in psychosis. While all atypical APs bind to this receptor, Risperidone has by far the highest specificity to it, like way higher than any other.
Also, my hallucinations are very psychedelic, and when I would look them up for an explanation before I was diagnosed all I would get would be posts on drug forums about LSD trips and stuff. I see things like bright colorful swirling lights and swirling floors and melting walls, all atypical hallucinations for sz, or so I have been told by professionals, and more typical of hallucinogenics, which as I mentioned, bind to 5HT2A.
APs that have had very high dopamine receptor binding actually don’t do jack for my symptoms, and just give me negative symptoms that I didn’t have previously, which to me suggests I don’t actually have a dopamine imbalance at all.
That was all my detective work. It’s also why I am VERY interested in trying min-101 when it’s released because it is the first AP that focuses entirely on 5HT2A blockade and not on dopamine receptors at all. I have a strong feeling this med is going to be the one for me, but I have no idea when it’s going to come out.
I hope you can find an alternative to min-101 in the meantime, as it could be sometime before it becomes available, even then it may be to expensive.
I agree that haloperidol or and possibly any of the older generation antipsychotics will not be very effective for you.
How does Trazodone effect you? Because is a serotonin antagonist and agonist, it would also help you sleep.
I was on trazodone for quite a while for sleep. Alone it didn’t do much but combined with Ativan it knocked me out. Issue is I continuously gained tolerance to it and had to keep raising my dose and got tired of that since it made me sweat a ridiculous amount and gave me bad low blood pressure waking up to where I actually fainted or almost fainted a number of times.
I use seroquel for sleep now and much prefer it.
I’ve been doing more research, and interestingly found that people with depression tend to have more 5HT2A receptors than the average person. I also struggle with depression. Hmm.
They constantly threaten me and use sexual tactics in my dreams, almost always against my will, there has been a few times to where I was okay with it in my dreams but it was them always forcing me and putting me into sexual situations I did not want to be a part of. It’s always either some sort of death/curse/kill my heart/ physical pain to me or some sexual act being done to me. Constantly being put in a negative emotional state upon waking is exhausting. After waking it’s back to having to listen to the voices and body being manipulated by them, as well as seeing things. ugh.
Yes you get it, I experience the same thing. Or they just hold me prisoner somewhere dark and horrible until I give in.
I had shadow people and demons that used to terrorize me for quite sometime and the demons used to electrocute my legs if I disobeyed them. For the longest time I thought it was real and the different meds didn’t help, so that made things worse for me. I’m on seroquel now and that helped for a while but my auditory hallucinations are coming back.
My friend who’s on seroquel says it works very well for her but that it’s extremely sedating which I believe because I’m on it for sleep right now. Also I heard it makes you pack on pounds. So I’m not thrilled to ever try it.
You can break out
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