Isolation, my only friend

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Good day to you all.

Had a bit of a relapse last night… feel better now though.

I have decided I’m just going to stay home from now on. The world drives me crazy and I just waste money.

I don’t like hanging out with normies, I wish there was a way to find out who has sz in this town.

Just thinking that I’m different makes me feel incredibly distant from these folks.

Went to a party last night with my friends… wasn’t any fun. Had some kind words thrown my way and got a hug from one of the girls. Even with that taken into account, it was just nerve wracking.

I run around trying to connect with people and they don’t even have a need for it. It’s totally imbalanced.

So yeah… Life will pass me by if I stay in my room but its better than running around like I have been.

Keep it real.

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It’s tough. I get the feeling that I am the only one who needs social contact the way I do. All the other people in the course that I am taking are all ‘ok’ and I seem to run around from place to place, or person to person to find some peace, but I don’t get it. I just get frustrated. My afternoons are spent alone, as are my weekends. Isolation is too, the only presence in my life, but I wouldn’t call it a friend. Or maybe I would, because they all ditched me.

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I understand where you’re coming from.

This is me giving in. Just accepting isolation.

I just created a google plus page for schizos in my town. Maybe given some time people will find it.

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I’m thinking facebook might be a good place to create a group. Most everybody has a facebook. I don’t really like facebook though and the group would be associated with my real name and everyone who is a friend would probably see that I created it. So I guess I’ll hold off on that.

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Facebook is a good place, but for privacy isn’t good. If I did something like that I wouldn’t associate my real account to the page. People are nosy and judgemental. There would be too much talk behind it all.

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Yeah I’ve decided against it. A lot of people use google plus as well.

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**Are there any groups in your area where you can find some common ground, and will also get you out there?
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szs have been hurt and we need time in our womb (isolation) to heal. You have us. That is probably enough for now. Get your rest and maybe later you will feel strong enough for a rebirth under better conditions.

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Some of the support groups in my area are open to all who suffer from mental distress but specify for just one. The last one I joined was specifically for bipolar. However was a variety of diagnosis among them. . I did find it very helpful and useful. At that stage I only had a SZ dx and still felt part of the group. So worth doing your research on them.

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I need go out into world more
Got to the stage staying in makes me really depressed
This morning worked two hours at charity shop been home since 12 pm and am depressed
Tomorrow meeting someone regarding art classes
I never go out at nigh for years but I cannot stay in all afternoon like I have done
I want go out!

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I just like staying where my symptoms are under control. If I completely forget about that world and keep myself focused its like I’m symptom free.

I guess I will eventually want to break this phase of isolation, but I will do my best to enjoy it for now.

Good luck shellys12. If I think of any ideas for you I’ll send you a message. Art classes and volunteer work seem like a good start.

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I know that feel op

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Helps with the depression to just get out for a walk each day. If there is a nice safe quiet park, lake, river etc near you. It does give you nice mindful place to just think away from your house as well.