Hi,
I’m having a very rough time. I’m just over a week in starting my meds again. Voices have slowed to a level where I have to really tune in to make out what they’re saying, but I’ve been thinking: It’s 2017. Is telepathy really real? Thought broadcasting is what I’m going through: My thoughts are not pure…I think of some weird things I’ll admit, and that’s what has me in fear. I feel like my whole apartment building (or wherever I go where there’s other people) can hear my thoughts and I feel like they’re responding to every thought I have like they’re my parents. They’re hyper critical and they tell me what to do. I can start thinking of someone and I believe their voice comes through in response to something I’m thinking or haven’t even yet put together in my thoughts. I was smoking weed before I started my meds again and this was even more amplified then and it seemed like everyone I smoked around knew what I was thinking and sometimes they would actually respond to something I thought out loud and I would be so appalled. They punished me often. I feel ostracized often. I am a shy, recluse kind of girl and I’m not sure if I’m farrrrr behind of the way of the world with telepathy? I myself cannot tune into anyone else’s thoughts.(I think) I wonder am I really paranoid schizophrenic or is that just what they tell people like me that are not as spiritually advanced/normal in society? I am really distressed over this. I feel like my mind is a vessel that everyone runs through and I have little room to think for myself and learn new things. I’m suffering. Can anyone relate or help me out? Before you say it, I also plan not to smoke weed anymore because this is too much, I can’t handle this.