Cause its painful, you know… i didnt care about my future before, so now its natural i guess cause i have nothing in life. I honestly do so few that i am afraid. I forced myself to go out today, but it was for fifteen minutes. Its too few, i am very passive. Its always either the negatives, either my fears… the docs didnt believe in me. My ex doc was saying that ill always suffer from negatives. Yeah. I dont want so lonely life, really. Nobody deserves to have nobody to whom talking like this… but is my worrying pathological? Sometimes i have only this thought - “how i am gonna to get out of this?”, no other thought for hours in the evening… its dumb to think like this no? Yeah, i am a dummie 
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I ruminate too. It’s tough when your mind won’t occupy itself with any other thoughts.
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Yeah… the problem is that everybody says its up tome to be more active. But what if i cant? And then i worry… sometimes i feel guilt. Yeah, we need to calm down on this maybe. I wonder if distracting at my house will ease a bit my thinking so ill be less paranoid, less angry and will start to go out more often?.. i dont know this…
I worry if my kids will end up sz. I worry if I No longer will be able to drive. I worry if my kids will get bullied in school. I worry about registration day at school. I worry alot
It can reach a pathological level. But everyone worries about the future. And most people worry about it quite a bit. The biggest hurdles to happiness are expectations and uncertainty. We want things to be certain and so when something unusual happens that we didn’t expect, it feels very unsettling, like we are standing on a surface with a weak foundation.
But it doesn’t help peering into the future. It is best to try to focus on what is right in-front of you and let the future take care of itself. Instead of worrying about what could happen, think about what can you do right now to make things better for you and those you care for. And it doesn’t have to be big or a lot of work. It can be small and you will still be doing something sort of proactive. It could even actually be Proactive so you don’t have pimples lol. That reminds me, I have lots of pimples. Might need to get Proactive.
I’m always worrying about my son too. That he’ll be bullied for having autism or won’t have a happy life. I worry he’ll inherit all my health conditions. He’s such a happy boy I really think I’d go homicidal with anyone that removes that happiness.
Sometimes I think i’ll Go homicidal if anyone hurts my girls
Thank you for the answers. I knew that i am not alone on this i guess… its just that i have some strange feelings in the evenings. I dont know how to react to all this. Maybe its just paranoia. I hope the meds will work one day. Its been two months for me on a proper dose. But its common to have strange feelings in sz isnt it? I cant even describe what i feel. Maybe guilt, some menace too wow…
I hope the meds willl help. One day at a time or hour at a time
I even ask myself now if i needed those meds. They are strange, they can make people crazier… the problem was that i remember myself before them… I had this fear inside me who was making me to suffocate even. I am not sure a psychoterapist could have helped on this regardless the heaviness of my symptom. Do i need this paranoia about the meds now? You know, my ill friend once told me, that she is pissed off by me cause i take psychiatric meds wow…
I worry a lot too.
For me it’s 24/7.
Continue taking your meds @Anna1
And you are not a dummie!
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Everyone worries about the future sometimes. When I was suffering under my untreated anxiety disorder the future absorbed my thoughts for hours and I was trying to plan every detail literally decades ahead. I’d be like but if I have kids I’ll have to put off this plan until this year and then how will I pay for this well I can calculate my bills now based on current taxes and looking things up and all of that. It was like my brain was eating itself. That’s clinical anxiety.
Yeah, i guess once you have a mi problem, you need meds, no?.. i try to remember when i was fine but it was never the case i think. My illness is not so heavy, but my fears are strange isnt it? Plus, i was having the tendency to live in my own head, talking interiorly to myself… even my vision gets blurry cause i feel my brain in my head. Sounds strange, but its like a pain in the head almost… its tough to hear this from a friend. That even she, my last friend, doesnt believe in meds for me.
Don’t listen to your so called friend.
You need meds.
Listen to your doctors.
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Ok… dont i sound better those last days, wave? More reasonnable? Yayk 
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Keep hanging in there Anna.
We are all in the same boat.
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We all fear the futur
Imagine calming down voices by the meds
Imagine if they return and spoiled all life
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Hang in there, you can and will get there. We are all in your corner x
Hang in there!! I was having thoughts like that as well I call them worrisome thoughts and with time they have gone away and I’m not as obsessive about them anymore either. Just take it one day at a time. What I did is that I got a job. Any job that I could easily function with and did my best to stay occupied and active. It has been a good distraction and has helped passed the time as well.
Just take it one day at a time and your mind will eventually stabilize.
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Worrying about the future is a very normal thing to do. Lots of people do it. We, as schizophrenics, have more to worry about, but there is still plenty on most people’s plate of things to worry about.