Or has schizophrenia made you a far more negative person? I have been disappointed and suffer so much that sometimes there feels like nothing but negativity in me.
Ive come to understand the roots of these issues but dont know if i can change them..at least any time soon. With intrusive thoughts and daily need to exercise self control I realized its made me really negative compared to before sz..
Am I alone?
You know the illness is a serious illness. It’s okay to for you to be upset about it..
Thats the issue.. without insight i feel im actually being persecuted. My negative feelings spill over ..at least in my head and effects everything when its bad. Im not trying to complian ..I realize I have a serious issues on my hands and I need to find better ways of coping
Talk to yourself in a mirror. I know this will sound vain, egocentric and maybe even bizarre. But try to create a situation of regularity where you talk to yourself as if you are your own friend. Like there’s a part of you inside which guides you from the outside (the mirror version)
I don’t know how else to describe it but, you are not in the wrong for feeling persecuted. Because that’s how part of it manifests!
Try addressing yourself in the third person when you write journal entries for example may be a tactic that could work with a longer term strategy
Im gonna try this out. The mirror thing and the journal thing.
My therapist told me the other week to stand in the mirror and be mean to myself because I was spending all day obsessing on being a bad person. Lol
Anyways..thanks for the suggestions..I will give it a try!
Good luck, you know I had like only four sessions of therapy; but they were enough to just nudge me in the right direction. I hope the same materialises for you as well
Thanks man and thats awesome… ive been in therapy 3 years 
You’ve got this, don’t let it stress you. You have strength, believe it
I’ve always been cynical and have little faith in humanity believing people operate on self interest and egoism. I’m ok with this philosophy. It doesn’t bother me. I just focus on myself.
I feel you man…alot of bad in the world. Sad thing is I feel like im one of them. Selfish and corrupted. …
It didn’t use to be like this but ive become pretty messed up guy. I feel like the biggest redeeming quality i have is wanted to be a better person and not causing harm…i genuinely dont want to hurt people
I wouldn’t say im cynical but I know there is much evil/bad in the world and in myself.
I turn on some Frank Sinatra and i can escape for a while with oldie music. Otherwise im in my head all day with a pic n mix of negativity
Frank Sinatra!!! Wonderful music 
Yea..thats probably a part of the problem. My therapist says I should get busy instead of ruminating on negative. Sad thing is yesterday I found a moment of peace thinking about all the hood I had Dispite the negativity.
Im gonna eat my chicken 
fries 
and relax . Hope your doing ok ducky…read about your husband needing another operation…
Thanks @signless im waiting for hubby to return home from his mates an im getting anxious again. Ive put tv on but cant really follow it. He be home in 40 min