Im realizing today that most of the things I really dont like about myself developed after getting sick. I think feeling abused and suppressed has made me really bitter and ive developed alot of defense mechanisms to cope.
Dealing with the ocd and kinda getting better at accepting it has shown me just how far ive strayed from who I am naturally. Sz/ocd/ghost from my past all have attached to me and when I try to leave them they fight like really to stay attached ….
i realize Dispitethe bad ive done in life im actuallythe person sufferingand not the person causing suffering. I almost hate humanityand i know its not healthy but i do and im fighting like hell to see the good in people… and myself
Anyways ..i dont anyone will read this but just venting. Sincerely.the oppressed optimist
Thanks man… good to know u gor through it. Im gonna try and see the good in the world because even though I done express it outwardly..my mind has an even more negativity bias…. That’s got to change
We all have a “negativity bias” in our brains. A negativity bias means that we pay much more attention to things we think are negative and ignore the positive. This is why one 1-star review can have more sway over a person’s decision even if there are 30 5-star reviews. Yes, it may be helpful from an evolutionary perspective, but it can, and often does, lead to false conclusions.
Have you ever gone to the dentist to have your teeth cleaned and the hygienist talks to you while she’s cleaning your teeth? You may see her as inconsiderate because you can’t talk while she’s cleaning your teeth, but is it possible that she’s talking to you on purpose to distract you from any anxiety you may be feeling?
We need to look for the good and bad in people, not just the bad. And we’ll recognize the good because we will see it in ourselves.
It is all good. It is not your fault. Your suffering has caused you to think in a negative way. Imagine if all these things didn’t happen to you. You would be thinking differently. Personally all my suffering has caused me to think more deeply about life. You are doing the same thing. And I don’t know how to explain it but it makes us a better person.
Minor inconveniences when you’re vulnerable can feel like catastrophic thinking coupled with rumination from OCD can lead to an inferiority complex and dysfunctional coping mechanisms in terms of rage. What other therapy can there be than self awareness and thought substitution. Authenticity: some days you wake up sad others happy. This is before any emotional currency in daily situations. Reality doesn’t always reflect our mental states. To be this or that you need to always be working in that direction. Even a person who gives up on life must constantly recite and live out their philosophy on a daily basis; coming up with creative excuses to procrastinate. Life is work. I think you’re doing well. I think you’re a talented musician. What you’re doing is working. 10 years from now if you keep up your trajectory you’ll be a force to be reckon with. Good things.
Thats a good way to look at it man. Im gonna try to meditate on it and start to search for the good in people. The intrusive thoughts are rough tho… I even have negative thoughts about my mom that I love very much.
Gonna have to get through yet another spell of ocd thoughts..
Its best to remember that were only human and all make mistakes, all contradict ourselves sometimes, screw up etc but most of us know and practice meaningful lives , following good natured things. Your a good man i can tell by how down to earth you are. Dont lose hope
There is outrage about people suffering and dying in conflict war zones and outrage about climate destruction and animal cruelty. This proves that people care a lot about nature and peace. Its just these things are outside of most peoples control
Hey ducky …i talk to my mom every day but rarley see my family. Im usually home alone 99.5% of the time. Its all good tho….sunshine and got some music done today
lol I guess im gonna start to look for the positive and that will bring some balance…hopefully.
…i talk to my mom every day but rarley see my family. Im usually home alone 99.5% of the time. Its all good tho….sunshine and got some music done today 