I can’t stay away from this site without wandering whats said and wondering back… I think I have a problem. I’m gonna take a break.
Left the site and in 5 minutes found this article.
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I understand why you wouldn’t want to be hooked on anything. But it could just be a lifeline of support that you are craving
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Gives me something to do. At this point though I need to redevelop my ability to entertain myself in my head.
Everything just feel so ephemeral.
In one ear out the other. Even my thoughts.
Psychotic breakdowns completely dismantle you. Continued psychosis breaks you down even further. Now that the psychosis is under control I need to restore my mind.
I think it is just a matter of time, but I got to spend some time without stimuli to see what my mind can come up with.
I do think you’re right though. This site is a lifeline. I don’t know where I’d be without it. Can’t even imagine. I know it’d be worse though. I’d be totally alone in this sz.
After 10 hrs or so of just watching this place. It starts to seem like a crawl.
I gotta get some other activities in my life.
Doing different activities throughout the day is never a bad thing. It makes me think of the hospital and how they change it up every hour in a structured way.
I thought about doing a schedule for myself but figured without anybody but me monitoring it Probley wouldn’t work. So I remembered something I learn many years ago at the hospital. They taught us how to do a life pie. I’ll post a picture of mine. Its hanging on the fridge where I can run to it when I’m falling apart. I read all the category’s and it becomes pretty clear what I have not done.
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Work meaning a productive task=school, volunteer work or yes a job. That one I still need mana on.
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You can fill it out anyway you want though.
I’ll spend some time thinking on that.
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I spend a lot of time on this site and on Youtube. I guess it’s not a bad way to pass the time of day.
Hey Siggy-
Try to force yourself outside at least once a day…a walk…to the convenience store. Or just make up some excuses to get your butt outdoors. I find the fresh air and sunshine to be helpful when I’m obsessing, be it on bills, the internet or what have you.
As soon as you count on it for maintaining healthy thinking it might be time to leave it alone for thirty minutes.
I’ll just sit on here for up to 10 hrs. I don’t even know how I do it. Typically music passes the time. It’s not unhealthy but I feel it’s also not healthy.
I have a lot of time to waste…
My neighborhood sucks. I do leave the house at least once a day though.
Have found my mind falling into the exercise topic a lot today.
Good suggestion man. I’ll think on that for a while as well.
I’m afraid I might be more addicted to the internet than I thought. I walked home in a bad mood and didn’t feel like facing alone time in my room. I got on the internet and everything was okay.
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Yeah… Don’t know how people ever survived without it.
I don’t live in the best of areas. Its very urban and the predators mess with me. Sometimes I’m feeling tougher then other days but calisthenics are great
I live in a very safe place. There is just a doorway everyone 20 feet. Roadway that kind of looks like this @ cars everywhere. Couple minutes to escape the compound to find long as sidewalks that don’t really lead to anything but more houses. I know that describes a lot of places but there are no gas stations or anything to make the trip worth while. Used to go on walks too. Wore out the scenery and different paths. I take 5 steps out of my house and I’m like yeah ■■■■ it.
Living in another town though the central shopping/restaurant/bar location was about half a mile away. Would walk/bike there and back multiple times a day.
This town is too large and I live near the edge.
I grew up here. This use to the safest place ever but they want to put a real public transit system out here despite what the locals wanted. The apartments are all getting old anyways I guess but I miss being carefree going down the sidewalk.
I just wish I had a gas station within a mile of here. I’d make the walk every day. The closest one is over this huge hill with no sidewalks. The next closest one is about 2 miles away. Would take close to an hour and it’s a really boring walk.
Plus I get harassed by my hallucinations when I’m around people whether they are in their cars driving by or on the side walk or just in sight. Constantly details my train of thought.
I’ve decided to just live at night when nobody is awake for now. It’s brought me a lot of comfort so far.
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I was night owl for the longest time. Even walked a quarter of a mile in my pjs to by a bottle of wine only to find out the don’t sell it that late. Nobody said anything to me.
Yeah I typically wake up right as the stores are closing. I’ve drank a lot this month though. Trying to moderate it. Didn’t drink last night. Can’t believe it’s Thursday already. Will probably wait until Friday. Other folks should be drinking then as well.
Maybe after another day of total isolation I’ll have a breakthrough in recovery and won’t even think of this telepathy crap.