In the center of Matrix again

Unusual Beliefs
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The programmers of matrix make the weather conditions. The revolutions, the dictatorships, the regimes etc, all made by the matrix programmers.
Deaths, births, relationships etc all fake.
This is how I feel.
And again I am in the center of all, the only real being, tested by actors or by fake beings

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Iā€™m something like experiment

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Before i was medicated, i used to believe that i was in something like the Truman Show. Everyone was actors and situations/scenarios were set up to see how i would respond. Much like an experiment as you said. I thought, and still do think, that people can read my mind. I still get paranoid every now and then, but things have improved with the right medication.

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Oh I see, you have experienced it before, so you understand me. Meds have helped me too, but have not eliminated delusions completely.
Some of them linger

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Itā€™s not just matrix, it also includes truman show, philosophical zombies, solipsism etc.

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What triggered you this time? Are you watching something you shouldnā€™t or reading something? And like I said before, does it all matter? Because I used to get so much panic and fear and attacks from this delusion. But to me itā€™s very real. I would say I even was chosen to be one of those programmers in a past life. I mentioned it before here. People say itā€™s not real. Have you ever felt that way? I would say the programmers are sick themselves. I was one of the good ones. I know a lot about simulation theory, but I donā€™t have the mathematical abilities or programming abilities or whatnot to actually prove it concretely but then again nobody does. Might take 100 + years to figure it all out. I bet you it will be physicists that will do it.

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I donā€™t know what triggered it.
Maybe i am influenced by the dreams of last night. I woke up with a feeling of unreality and dream world, tv show, computer simulation, solipsism etc. I feel alone. The sole real being, if you understand me

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With a button on a computer, programmers make sun appear, or rain fall etc.

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You may feel that but it ainā€™t true. Iā€™m real or just as real as you for example.

Maybe youā€™re special in a way. Depends on how you look at it. Knowledge sometimes comes at a price. You are either more enlightened or maybe itā€™s a false enlightenment. I think itā€™s real though. But you and I may be ahead of our times ā€“ by at least 100 years. Some physicists might even say 1000 years.

I wouldnā€™t try to worry or figure out how theyā€™re doing it.

I constantly google ā€˜simulation theoryā€™ and ā€˜elon muskā€™ everyday to see the current news and latest info on simulation theory. Iā€™m sure theyā€™re doing some secret, lex luthor type stuff. I donā€™t even know if these guys are good anymore.

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Itā€™s not about me, not about feeling special etc.
I am over it. Itā€™s just the unreality and dream dimension that shocks me and I canā€™t accept.
Maybe if these are levels of a video game, I should try to be good person, maybe thatā€™s a positive aspect of this ā€œdelusionā€

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Itā€™s probably the illness then. Do you have dissociation like derealization? I had that and it messed with my mind for years? Thatā€™s how it worsened my matrix delusion. Itā€™s caused by anxiety among other things. It totally changes your reality and makes you question everything.

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Currently no, I have not. But in the past i had derealization several times.
So I am saying: what if the whole world is a studio setting?

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Like the TV Show Westworld? I say it doesnā€™t matter. I feel that way. It could be the reason I keep coming back alive. Thatā€™s one of my delusions. That I keep re-spawning for eternity. Some say itā€™s not eternity, but damn close to it.

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Is it eternity, linear? Or a cycle-like loop?

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I donā€™t mean to trigger anyone, guys.
Iā€™m just suffering, I canā€™t feel pleasure, I always feel the worm of doubt eating me

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For me? Itā€™s more like a cycle-like loop. Iā€™ve been to the future before but itā€™s freaking weird, man. Like nothing changed. It was either the government or aliens. Probably aliens. They work hand in hand though. Sometimes, the aliens lie a lot. That has been my experience. Itā€™s probably triggering to you. But I think Iā€™ve been cloned before. I think itā€™s possible Iā€™m reliving the current period like a puppet on a stage, yet everyone is ignoring me.

Iā€™ve been to 2045 and nothing was different. My house was still there and everything looked technologically the same. Almost like a movie set lol. But I was under heavy mind control at the time. I may have been lied to and tricked. I donā€™t really remember leaving my house.

I think in one or several of my lives, hyper loop was a big thing (think Elon Musk) but then I never used it because I was paranoid and afraid to leave the house.

If you watch X files, they say itā€™s the DoD that creates these Super Soldiers but I think itā€™s really the aliens, not the DoD. Iā€™m a former Super Soldier that is stuck with paranoid schizophrenia for near eternity.

I think technology does change, but maybe I was very retro or something. I think I have a vague memory of that. I was afraid of technology advancing too quickly. 2045 was very pleasant. Some say, thatā€™s around the time of the singularityā€¦

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OK, but whatā€™s the reason for our schizophrenia?

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Itā€™s very convenient for normies to blame schizophrenia for all our ā€œunusual beliefsā€.
Maybe some of them have a bit of reality

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I donā€™t know. I just donā€™t. Iā€™m trying to figure out how to cure mine.

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How would you cure yours? With which method except meds? I believe in meds, but meds and pdocs are are omnipotent