You all are enlightening me. I think I might retract the statement in its general form. All I know is that in my case my symptoms and psychosis were purely irrational.
iāve been completely irrational lots of times. mainly during psychosis. in fact, looking back, i canāt actually believe that my psychoses lasted so long. take one instance. when i moved into a new house, i was on seroquel, something like 100mgs, and i lost the plot completely. it started out as paranoia with just two voices telling me that everyone was against me. every time i read the news paper it was about me. the stories were written to get to me, everyone on my estate was waiting to rape and kill me. this went on for months before mushrooming into myriad voices and then mt paranoia got even worse. i find it so odd looking back that i could actually have fallen for it. but i couldnāt trust my own mind. it was very odd indeed. pure irrationality. i donāt know whether it was the house move or programming that did it. i remember knowing that something was going to happen when i went to view the house but the kids liked it so i took it. that was when melanie brownās voice repeatedly asked me to commit suicide. it was a horrible time but i just couldnāt regain my grip on reality. seem silly now but it happened nonethless. odd.
again Iām so sorry Jayne. Wtf is up with our minds?