I’m unsure if I’m really schizophrenic - I have some supposed “delusions” I think are more likely than not to be true, but which I know might be false.
However, I feel like I can reason perfectly rationally and soundly about my delusions. I’ve heard some schizophrenics say when they get delusional it’s like their brain misbehaves and its wiring is broken, but I’ve never felt that way. I always feel lucid and rational about my delusions. I know the “delusions” are improbable, but I’ve experienced such weird things that I can’t completely reject them. If a perfectly sane person were to encounter the same visions and events that I have, I feel like they’d reason similarly to me - and be stuck in the same state of confusion.
I’m curious if others with supposed delusional thinking just feel like their rationality is impaired or if they also feel perfectly rational.
If you believe in things other consider to be “delusions” or are unsure if certain “delusions” are true, do you feel you can reason rationally about your “delusions”?
My experiences are firmly in the metaphysical, so I can’t objectively reason about them, they are in my memory banks and I can’t correlate that data with anyone, so I might as well pretend they didn’t happen and go on with my life, instead of making myself crazier and hanging on to those experiences, hoping for more like them.
I don’t understand how people can function if everyone can hear my thoughts as well as some of you at the same time. If people can hear my thoughts then normal people hear voice too.
I believe there’s some truth to my delusions but that they’re mostly false. I’m able to think rationally about them, but for example with social paranoia, I still feel the effects of paranoia regardless of knowing it’s just a delusion.
That’s the conclusion I’ve come to, that sz takes what’s true and “normal” and exaggerates it and twists it into something delusional. I have a deep faith in God, which some would consider wholly delusional, but I’m within boundaries of normal belief systems, until sz twists my beliefs and exaggerates my importance, my perceptions, etc., and I’m learning to decipher when that happens and how to keep myself safe in my beliefs…
For example I believe the government gave me schizophrenia. I still believe this.
But in the beginning I thought there was a conspiracy against me and I thought my wife was in on it. Her cousin died in a car accident and she had to fly home to go to the funeral. I thought it was the government and her cousin didn’t really die and she was going somewhere to collaborate with them.
But 10 years later her cousin is still dead. It was just in my mind and my wife probably wasn’t in on it but I sure believed she was at the time
Schizophrenia sucks. I am still delusional 10 years later.
It depends. I’ve had delusions i could be rational about. Reason with.
I’ve had others that were completely irrational and often harmful, which at the time, seemed as solid and real as anything.
I’d never have known i was delusional, if somebody else hadn’t noticed.
I know all my delusions are based around sin & the whole god deal & pretty much what habits their affecting, but they still affect me subconsciously everyday
I can relate my delusions rationally with the other reasons as well than the actually cause me schizophrenia. For example I loved a girl for living both of us in the three towns together but schizophrenia caused me by thinking another imagination about this.
My delusions, today anyway, are all about Gd, and I can’t reason them away because who is anybody to say that they are not true? Who dares say they are not? So, of course I believe in them. Besides, they are not hurting anybody.
My rational mind tells me that my so called delusions, or illusions, or ideas of reference or spiritual experiences, or whatever you want to call them, are very real.