I’m sitting here alone. I can hear light traffic in the distance and a few birds chirping softly. It’s still early enough to be very quiet.
But I have a crowd mumbling/murmuring just loud enough to be noticed, as if there’s a party in the next room. And a high-pitched sort of whistle with a buzzing similar to static on a tv. In my ears. I can feel the air pressure pushing at my skull and ears, even though I’m at a mile elevation and the air is actually thin. The clock on the wall is ticking and it’s unbelievably loud. If I focus on it, I’ll want to smash it on the floor.
When I stop to think like this it feels unbearably lonely. And everything feels heavy. I stop and push my face with both hands. I push the sides of my head, but nothing changes the noise.
When I was younger, a teenager, it was worse. Everything was louder then.
I wish I could be myself and tell everyone what this world looks and feels and sounds like to me.
Good morning everyone! 
Sending you a (((hug))) to start your day. 
Good Morning @Hedgehog
I hope that you have a wonderful day!
Good morning @Hedgehog 
Good morning @Hedgehog , it is the evening here, I am also sitting alone in my place, watching some funny dance videos, my day was ok, I rode my bicycle and ate well and then slept a little, I exercised two hours today, which is good, here is one video 
Good morning Hedgehog! When the crowd in the next room gets too annoying for me, I play music. Could that help you too, or would it hurt your ears more?
It’s been louder than usual the last few days. Music is always a good thing. Thank you
More than the noise itself is the isolating aspect of an alternate experience. My husband woke up and I decided to tell him what was going on for me. I’ve never shared a lot of my experience with him. I prefaced by saying that I was just sharing and wasn’t looking for an answer from him.
He listened and was sympathetic but could return immediately to his world and I’m alone again in mine.
Another reason this forum is so important to me. I know people here understand. That means a lot to me. ️
thats exactly why i joined this site, cus i need support every so often from people who know what im going through, i feel like i cant get that same support from my family, cus they cant understand exactly what im going through
Good morning
Maybe you could be a writer.
I think you could be good at it.
Just a thought i had.
Good that you feel you have some support (from what i understood)
good morning @Hedgehog lots of hugs xxxxxxxxxx
Thanks, @Truemist8. Some others in my family are talented writers. I appreciate the comment. 