Im turning into a mess

Ive seen my social worker today and asked for alcohol rehab. Im relying on it too much and conning myself daily that i dont have a problem. Im drunk almost everyday - self medicating my Sz yet continue to do so. I lack any form of self-control, and i firmly believe i would be on a lower dosage of APs if i didnt drink so much. The only downside is - my only friends are down the local pub - so im basically gonna isolate myself by quitting drinking. Its not the sort of bar where you can order a cola either - its sorta frowned upon. I dunno anymore - im sick and tired of drinking. For once im taking responsibilty for my actions.

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I’m proud of you for taking this step. I know you’re worried about being isolated but maybe there are some groups you could go to. What did your social worker say about rehab?

Are there any ways you can think of to meet new people? Other people that you would like to hang around with while being sober?

@Leaf
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Im gonna try for voluntrary work. My social worker says hes gonna put a referral in for me. My drinking is always been the topic for years when i seen the shrink. I dont see any other people other than the pub - so its gonna be bloody hard. I would try to drink soft drinks, but i no damn well i would probably order a pint. Rehab would be at least a couple months away, after the paperwork is done but im gonna try my best.

I honestly have no other freinds other than the pub - no one else knows me round here. But the local food bank i use has put me in touch with a local Baptist Church - so im gonna brave it and attend a service Sunday.

Thank you for your support - but its gotta come from me, if i havent got the self-control to give up poxy drink at 43 - theres something wrong. I have a lovely flat, with plenty of gadgets to keep me occupied - so i shouldn’t be complaining . Its the loneliness i cant stand tho - i drink for company!

Ive just gotta knuckle down for a couple of weeks and change my attitude - till the rehab kicks in x

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Voluntary work is a freaking awesome idea. I loved when I did it before the sz. I think you are going about it the right way. And maybe it will come down to you having to relearn things and just get in the habit of doing things differently.

I really hope it works out for you.

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I used a be a care assistant years ago - so ive looked on the local websites and found a job making teas for the elderly in the afternoon. Got a bit of a record tho now, being daft and getting arrested when i was un-medicated - so not so sure about the Criminal Record Check… But my social worker would probably write a letter for me…We will see…

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You’re right, you need to do it for yourself. Alcohol has only ever been a problem for me because with the bipolar component of my illness, my brain doesn’t tell me when it’s had enough and it wants another… and another… and another. So I stay away from it.

What was the hardest thing I ever did was give up cigs and nicotine. I tried probably 6-7 times over the past 5 years, and then finally in September 2016, I quit >for me< and damn it, I haven’t touched them since.

If it’s something you really want to do, go for it, and remember you’re not entirely alone because you have us on here :slight_smile:

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It’s a good move for your health. Might pay to go once a week and have a couple. Ease off of it so it’s not so harsh on your body. At least you know what you need to do. I try and replace negative behavior with good. If I don’t have that drink I’ll go for a walk or do some exercise instead. It promotes a much healthier person.

good luck!

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