Blame, blame, blame. That’s all I’ve been doing. Maybe it’s to the point some of the time, but not all of the time. It’s time for me to take a deep breath and be responsible for myself. If I would only care. It’s so much more difficult when the “I don’t care.” thought comes to mind. But that is just the weakness I’m talking about. I’m mustn’t sleep through life. I might miss something.
Sometimes just letting go and exhaling can make things better. Trying to figure out every little thing is exhausting. I’m letting some things go because it’s like a dog chasing it’s tail. So many thoughts and yet we end up in the same spot, having gone nowhere but in a circle. 
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That’s so true. I feel like Michael Jackson’s Man in the Mirror song. It’s time for me to make some changes. I’ve coddled myself long enough.
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From your posts, @PinCushion, I believe you’re hard on yourself. You torture yourself with these thoughts of the past. You place the heavy burden of trying to figure out “why” on your own shoulders.
No one else would blame you if you just stopped trying so hard and relaxed. I think you need to be nicer to yourself.
Thank you for the thought, @Hedgehog. Yes, I was hard on myself, and hard on everyone around me. No wonder I kept to myself. Nobody enjoyed my company. Who likes living with a prosecutor?
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Lol. I’ve been so hard on myself too. And I can be really hard to live with. But I’m trying to relax more. It’s difficult! But I don’t have to solve all the mysteries of my life and the universe. My mom was not a good mom for many reasons. The minute thinking about it becomes too painful or stressful, I make myself stop.
You deserve to be happy, @PinCushion. Just be.
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I used to be a strong person but mental illness made me weak. I’m trying to recover.
That’s right, we all are. I’m just saying it’s time for me to take another step forward. Recovery is so much two steps forward, one step backward. And every one of us is on a different schedule for when it’s time to move on.
I feel you, extremely. I always think “i need to do something with my life cuz it’s passing me by, im missing out, I need to be something.” But honestly, I feel, that doing stuff everyday is 100x harder for us. Maybe we see that whatever it is we “should” be doing isnt anything special. Maybe you should just chill out. Maybr you arent doing anything wrong by doing nothing. I’m teaching myself not to force it. If I cant do things gracefully then I shouldnt and probably wont for that matter. Ive been thinking that everything we could do are equal in importance and actions we take only have value when you give them value and make it something personally important to you. For me its about comparing myself to others… Feeling inadequate because of how successful some people are and feeling like I’m missing out and I need to get off my ash and catch up. But at least I think, when you realize all this, you start to become better than people that have more than you. I feel as though people are so easy about accomplishing goals is because they dont think, (which maybe they should) they just do.
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Ive felt that exact same way way and related my instance to that same exact song
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