You know me, but you don’t know me. I’m right behind you in the supermarket line.
Yes, that’s me, looking around innocently. Buying a coke, acting normal.
That’s me, working shoulder to shoulder with you unloading trucks for four years and you didn’t have clue, and that’s what I’m counting on.
Not saying a word. The stealth schizophrenic.
You can’t tell. If you only knew the truth. But I’ll never tell you and you wouldn’t guess in a thousand years.
I blend in like a chameleon.
I might say “hi” and grin, but behind that grin, my mind is going a mile a minute. Am I fooling you? Am I acting normal enough?
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You’re one of the normalest people I know Nick 
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That’s about right. Good to ponder on.
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Am I acting normal enough?
I ask myself this question every time I’m in town. Which isn’t that often anyway.
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way to go duke.
You’re an inspiration of mine.
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I’m the opposite. I’m the flamboyantly open schizophrenic. I will tell you my diagnosis within a day of meeting you. I smile and joke, and patiently answer questions. No, I’m not dangerous. Yes, I do take meds. Yes, I have been committed. No, it’s not like in the movies, but it still isn’t fun. I will challenge your preconceptions. I will make you see me as a person, instead of a stereotype.
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I tend to keep it to myself, unless it’s relevant to the conversation. I’ve gotten really good at hiding my symptoms, to the point where I’ll actually force an emotional expression and tone just to look “normal” when my affect is flat. Unless I’m tired, then I just let it go, it confuses people to see me that way when usually I’m very bright and cheerful. As for the stuff I can’t hide, I just wave it off as, “I have a bad memory” or “I’m sorry, I wasn’t paying attention, could you say that again?” when actually I was dissociating or listening to the cacophony in my head.
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Totally relate to this! You should write a book, @77nick77.
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i have many sheath kills in far cry…omg out of topic…!!!
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