I'm so scared

That my husband will leave me. I’m terrified of divorcing him because I’d be unable to support myself and won’t have enough money and I don’t know if I can work.

I’m scared he’ll will leave me, because I can’t see to his needs. Eg. He needs to get out and the only way for this is if I go out and drive him (because of his seizures it’s not safe for him to). And I don’t like going out because my sza and anxiety make it hard.

And he doesn’t want me to cover up things and have secrets but I have a few secrets from him because I’m scared he’ll will get upset.

For example he’s a devout muslim and doesn’t like me to listen to music and I can’t help it - I need music so I listen at night when he’s asleep. If he finds out I am terrified he’d want to leave me. So I hide it. I hate that I have to but what else can I do to keep the peace?

And he likes to do everything together and I’m a loner. He’s a wonderful man but it seems I’m not able to meet his needs. I’m trying so hard…

I’m so scared it won’t work out…

Maybe keeping secrets from him makes you feel that way… maybe you can talk to him about what you have been hiding? Do you have a family you can rely to??

I feel like I’m not good enough for him. He said I’ve changed from when I first got married to him. I’ve gotten worse in character it seems. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. Sometimes I feel it’s better for all concerned if I just kill myself.

He used to let me listen to music but lately he said he doesn’t want me to. And that I can if I want to but then we must go separate ways

I have my parents and sister to help me but they’re financially struggling

Common, very one has their own pet scary movie. In most instances they do not play out in real life. Once you see how our thoughts are playing us up, you would be better for it.

Learn to contemplate. It helps in my case.

Cherio…

Everyone changes a little bit with this illness… it’s not your fault… don’t hurt yourself😕 “need to go separate ways” Seems like it’s something beyond your music listening… I still think you should face him and talk to him about what your afraid of

Omg you need music. It’s therapeutic for schizophrenics.

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Just to play ball with your husband, how about religious music? Songs that pass his approval. Or genres or artists.

Music is pretty important.

You can’t listen to music? That’s insanity I’d leave him just for that, but besides my opinion, try to talk with him about your fears and troubles, open communication can work out most problems. Most people have no clue what sz’ers go through we have to be a little vocal about what we deal with.

I do listen to islamic music with him and sometimes by myself too but I like regular music too so listen to that by myself. I can’t really just rely on islamic music as i like to dance and so I like regular music to dance to

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