Im so lonely

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Im so lonely i dont know what to do. I have lost all my friends along the way, and i cant meet new people as I can only fake it for the first 5 minutes or 10 and then they see theres something wrong with me. I dont like it. I hate socializing.

Im home alone for the next 4 days at a very dangerous time. ive thought about cutting the extension chord and hanging myself, it will all be over and peaceful, I would really hurt my mom though. I can see here balling her eyes out from above.

Im tired of masturbating as it was the only thing that made me feel good. Im dead inside and feel like i should be dead on the outside aswell. Im like a plague to society that no one wants to be around.

Im tired of this battle

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I live with siblings but I also feel alone. You are very fortunate to still have a mom. I am sure she loves you very very much. Please do not do anything to harm yourself. Life is precious even with this illness.

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Yes, please do not commit suicide. It is too final. You will be hurting your family very much, and us here on the forum.
Tell your pdoc what you just told us. Please stay alive!!!

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I think everyone with an illness like this feels alone in a lot of ways.

I’m married, surrounded by activities and people, and feel lonely all the time.

You need to pull it together,

Next week you have an appointment with your doctor and maybe you guys can straighten some stuff out.

Did you call them to move it up to this week?

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You sound depressed
Have you thought of trying antidepressants
They can help you cope better and lift your mood so you can think more positive
They might cause lack of libido not sure
I just think that they might help

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You should try to be social anyway. Who cares if your mentally ill. Just go for it. People are more excepting than we think. It’s better than being alone.

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We keep living for the ones we love. You keep looking inward. Look outwards too. Where would those people be with out you?
You are lonely, and there they sit too. Reach out to family.

Talk to them. Tell what you’ve been doing. The progress you’ve made. Listen to them and narratives of their lives.

You may not have any friends now, but your family members probably do. Try to meet some of them in the up coming holidays.

Start with family with trick or treat aged kids. Voluteer to walk with the adults Halloween. Same for other holidays. Ask to help make something. Be generous with compliments. I am just saying we have to be involved.

I know you feel bad and lonely, but reach out to them, and you will find why you would be mistaken in what your thinking of.

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