I miss my dog that died five years ago.
I’m angry at my mother for the mistakes she did a long time ago.
I feel like crying but tears won’t drop.
I actually miss Lisbon.
I smoked a cigarette and it helped. Maybe quitting smoking right now isn’t the best idea, my cycles became worse. I’ll quit when I’m more stable.
Meh
Thanks for reading
You are fine. Just some old memory have come back. And it seems that Libson is suitable for you.
aw hugs. sometimes we havta fall to recognize our humanity… i was crying about two weeks ago about dogs i miss. i still think highly of you Minnii
Don t worry minnii every drop already has to dry.big hugs and sorry
I wouldn’t worry about the smoking if I were you. It took me about fifty tries to commit smoking. If you’re too stressed out, maybe you should put off quitting to another day. It sounds like you have ghosts from the past. I imagine most of us do.
Are you cycling too @minnii like do you get it several times a day ? how often do you cycle… i hope you feel better and i know it will get better
I have cyclotimia. I cycle a lot during the day. Most days are bearable some not so much. I’m used to it.
it’s like changing meds minnii… takes a couple weeks to level out…
Thanks everyone! I feel a bit better. I’m going for a ride in the country to a little old town. I think it will take my mind out of rumination.
I’m sorry you are not yourself today. It will pass and you will be Okay tomorrow.
Don’t worry about the cigarettes for now Minnii. As for your mother’s mistake, did everything turn out for the best in the end?
Most people with mental illness tend to have their symptoms flare up when bad things happen. I think you’ll find that things will improve with time. We all have our setbacks. Even normal people can be messed up by stressful things. That’s life. Stressful situations have intensified my symptoms lately too.
I hope you feel better soon @Minnii.
Maybe adding a mood stabilizer could help.
Im still cycling - it shall pass, there must have been a trigger.
Nicotine withdrawal to me feels like the worst PMS on earth. Combined with old memories in an old place that could be bad, yeah. Maybe the country is a place to take a break and just reflect on all the progress you have already made.
Oh, sweetheart. I’m glad you’re feeling a little better. You haven’t failed anyone. What you’ve done is amazing.
Cutting back is a good goal - don’t set yourself up to feel badly about yourself.
Hope you’re enjoying your afternoon 
Yes it did turn out well for both of us. I was panicking. Its over, we went for a great ride.
Thank you sweetie. I eventually had a good day. I’ll share the pics when I’m in Lisbon.
I’m glad everthing turned out well in the end. You’re such a ray of sunshine on this forum. Even though I haven’t been on here for too long I always notice your posts. I think most of us agree we’re here for you Minii.
Aww thank you! That means a lot. A big hug!
I don’t know where I would be if it wasn’t for this forum
Minnii,
You have a nice voice on these forums!
Seriously, I’m depressed for a while; it happens.
Jayster