I'm so cold

[Noise]

I’ve become such a bitter and mean person. I feel like I have no more patience or compassion for people anymore.

All the things people do feels like nails on a chalkboard. Friends have become a chore and others I can barely tolerate.

I’ve been stabbed in the back and betrayed too many times. And I think it might have finally broke me.

Everyone seems fake and I hate it

I don’t want to be like this. I don’t want to be So hyper-critical and mean and bitter and suspicious. I want to be a good person. I want to care about people again.

What’s wrong with me

[anon39054230]

"Everyone seems fake and I hate it"

I find most people to be genuine at heart. The odd few who aren’t, I won’t usually give them the time of day.

[Noise]

I’ve been betrayed by so many people I’ve trusted.

Friends, family, doctors they’ve all broken my trust repeatedly.

■■■■ I half expect one day to receive the Caesar treatment. I mean hell, I already have enough knives in my back for it

I hate it

[anon10648258]

I think you are feeling exactly what I’m feeling. Hang in there.

[anon51377248]

I’m cold and distant a lot of the time. It’s not enjoyable. But at least I have my warmer moments sometimes so that’s good.

Hope you get to feeling better

[everhopeful]

My trust in people is gone too.

[Here4You]

I discussed this with my therapist and we said that I have been set back in terms of love due to my illness. Being aware of the need to warm up is a good first step.

[Noise]

I’m just scared.

I feel like I’m becoming evil and cruel. And I don’t think it’s just a delusion.

But idk how do I start to love things again? I used to be so kind-hearted and caring.

Now I see someone who needs help and I can rarely motivate myself to care enough to even say something

Like a lot of times caring feels like an after thought.

I think maybe somewhere in my brain I just feel like “why bother? They’re just going to hurt me or betray me or just not care. What’s the point?”