i’ve done it again and idk how i keep doing this but i think i’ve taken on too much for my little brain to handle and its starting to short circuit 
woke up in a state of fear and confusion feeling completely overwhelmed and although i managed to calm down its a huge warning sign for me,
right now i have a lot to do and i thought i could do it all a bit at a time but too much stuff for me can be dangerous,
here is a list of things i have on my plate atm
- guitar practice/tuition
- push 2 practice/tuition
- new project in the garden (building green house & research)
- Rabbits (taking on pets & research)
- Radio show (interview scheduling, keeping track of interviews, editing etc)
- video editing (this is upsetting me as i cant get to grips with the software)
- my neighbour (this is a bit confusing)
- my clubhouse (helps but maybe i could cut it back a bit)
- i have a thing on at the station tomorrow
- i have an interview on Thursday for a volunteering thing
- fishing (still want to go fishing with my friend)
- new car (researching new cars)
- i got some messages on my phone that were upsetting
- fatigue
i just have a lot going on right now, and i would say 80- 90% of it is good positive its just a bit overwhelming so i have to be very careful now