Im not sick

You are sick.

It’s not us in your head.

That stuff doesn’t happen.

That wasn’t a shadow person you saw, and that alien wasn’t anything, the satyr that showed up was simply your mind messing up, that ufo was nothing at all.

You have visions of the future for no reason.

Hallucinations physically harm you because you are sick.

Was that a hooded figure in your house on your way back or are you ill?

What was that serpent made of light? Just your illness, you are sick.

Shaman see what you do and always have because you are sick.

We’re not in your head, you are ill and have a chemical imbalance.

That wasn’t us making you look at the same times on the clock, thats a disease.

Those weren’t our followers that took your car after you sat up with us in your head telling you that you should give it to them.

You aren’t being killed, it’s a disease.

That wasn’t even a witch at that bar that seemed to make you visually hallucinate, he may have yelled it in your face that he was but you are just sick.

Voices didn’t tell you things that prove they are seperate and have a conscious cause, thats just your disease talking.

We didn’t set you up and aren’t going to make you look a certain way either, thats paranoia entirely, it’s not real, you are sick.

Sure the list is mounting, it might look as though you weren’t sick, but we assure you that you are, it’s a chemical imbalance, thats scientific right there, you can trust us.

ah yes, “the reasoners/advisers”

I have experienced psychosis on and off for the last 12 years, been flouridly psychotic 3 times in my life; but, I do not consider myself sick in a technical sense of the word. There is no laboratory test that would indicate that I have a physical disease. My self reporting would indicate to some that I experience non-oridinary state of consciousness on occasion that can cause me and those around me to be uncomfortable, but I am not ill with a physical malady.

What I expereince is of the psyche (of the mind and of the soul), it is psychological in nature. It could be called a disorder, but not a sickness.

Chemicals of the class of drugs called “anti-psychotics” (AP) effect consciousness as any mind altering substance does. I use a level of AP that allows me to function in the world (work, go to school, socialize pleasantly, etc). These chemicals do not change who I am fundementally and do not cure my problems, they just give me distance from them so I can learn ways in which to resolve the psychic crisis that is called schizophrenia.

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