I'm not feeling well

DX'd - Other
21

Most of the time, I can not feel emotions or pleasure properly.

22

I tend to not show emotion and people get really upset with me about it, but I do care.

23

Ya most schizophrenics I meet always say itā€™s like that sometimes but for me its like that 24/7. I canā€™t get a break. I donā€™t know why the hell God is making me suffer like this.

24

To me, itā€™s 24/7, I can not feel emotion, I feel empty.
I can not think straight too.
Lately, Iā€™m sleeping too much, it can be because of depression.
I feel out of reality, it is depersonalization. It seems that everything is unreal.

I also wonder why Iā€™m suffering, seems like a punishment, or that God is not seeing what Iā€™m going through.

25

So why would you say it only happens sometimes? Every person I talk to does this. They confuse me so much because they say it happens sometimes and then they change it and say it happens all the time.

26

Sorry, I may not have express myself well.

To me, this lack of emotion seems to happen 24/7.

27

So how long have you been like this?

28

I think that is from the beginning of the disease that the lack of emotion disturbs me. But itā€™s getting worse over time to the point I can not speak what I want, I can not think straight when I speak or write something, itā€™s like a mental block happens when I want to express myself.

29

Yah, I can never speak what I want. So when were you diagnosed?

30

I was diagnosed in April, 2011.

Due to the depersonalization and negative symptoms, currently Iā€™m home, feeling very anxious, I have no desire to do things, for example: I have no desire to read books, play games, listen to music, watch movies ā€¦ There are moments that I listen to some music, or something else, but not the same intensity as beforeā€¦

How could I explain? I take no pleasure in doing things, as it had before.

31

Yah, I donā€™t feel anxious but I donā€™t enjoy anything. Music, movies, books, anything. Were you hospitalized?

32

I was not hospitalized.

Iā€™m currently using:

  • Risperidone (6 mg)
  • Haloperidol (2mg/ml - drops) (0.8 mg)
  • Clonazepam (2 mg)
33

So you were diagnosed with schizophrenia by a regular psychiatrist.