I called my old uni to know if they’ve got the paperwork I need to change schools, turns out it’s going to take at least one more week or more. The deadline to enroll in the major I want is the 15th of this month, if it turns out they don’t give me the paperwork in time I can’t go back to school next fall.
I took half a benzo.
If I’m not going to school I either find some volunteering to do or a part time job.
Ugh.
It’s my fault really, I procrastinated and waited until the last minute
To be honest, it’s your fault. But don’t worry, volunteer or job experience can help your education.
Hope you can get the paperwork before deadline.
The best advice with benzos is to take them as prescribed because taking extra can cause tolerance. I once took an extra benzo in order to deal with a sleep study on the second night because I was too nervous too otherwise handle it since I drank too much water and spent the whole first night urinating. All it achieved was just a few hours of sleep followed by more urinating. I was constantly being told to go to sleep which didn’t help my nerves a bit and also was not helped by the fact that I was aware I was being watched all night (I sleep alone for a reason). I was given ambien and began a sleep aid habit that steadily worsened over time. I also believe I became tolerant to clonopin. It was a bad move. Just a friendly warning.
Is the paperwork an application form? I guess you are taking tranquiliser when you mean it by “benzo”.
Still 2 weeks to go! Hope everything goes smoothly.
The best thing is to ring the college and tell them some of the paperwork will be late and is this going to be ok? Get the rest (or at least some) of the paperwork in on time.
Then ring your old school and tell them how urgent it is and ask them can they speed things up?
2 phone calls to make.
How is the driving class going?
Almost over, one month left. 
An actual benzodiazepine. Yeah, I’m calmer now.
And @everhopeful I wish it was that simple. Portugal is known for it’s slow processing beaurocracy
Still, I’d make the phone call to the college and see what they say about getting your previous documents in a bit late.
well keep that going…
have you moved yet?
There is no trouble in being patient and forgiving yourself… school can wait until january… I think having your own space and being able to drive… and knowing your mother has her own space as well is really going to improve the comfort and freedom of your life…
keep positive… don’t panic… you’ll be in school before you know it.
@everhopeful makes a good point… sometimes schools will be lenient with deadlines if you make a personal contact with someone who can make note of it on their end… you tried and are trying and life is a mess at times…
There’s no chance in that happening. I’ll make the call anyway thanks
The fact that you are striving as hard as you can speaks well of you. I know dealing with officials can be frustrating. Be assertive with them. Let them know you are working within a very limited time frame and you can’t let them put you off. As for the benzo - I don’t think it will hurt you as long as you don’t make a habit of it. Just using one during a time of stress is okay. As long as you don’t start needing them before you venture outdoors I wouldn’t worry about it.
I hope it all works out for you Minnii. I know how much you want this to work.
i’m doing the opposite of this, i decided not to pursue college this year by choice and now i am concentrating on volunteering and maybe a part time job, these are all worthwhile things to do but i really hope you get to do what you want,
i think i am finished with college now maybe and if i want to pursue college it will be through training but i realise it will be a long time before that may happen if at all.
Wish you the best @Minnii
I start school next week, I’m very nervous 
Eh, play the mental illness card. Organization is difficult for those of us with SZ. Not completely inappropriate to seek an accommodation in this case. You can probably get the date slid around a bit if you need to as these institutions have a mandate to help those in our situation.
I think you are going to get in this coming Fall. Fingers crossed!