I don’t mean all day. And I don’t mean every day. But just enough good things happen every day to make getting up in the morning worthwhile.
But whenever I think of the situation at home it depresses me. Like @rogueone said, no one knows my situation but me. I know what everybody says and I know what everybody thinks about it. (Because you’ve told me). And I believe you are all partially right. But when someone embarrasses me by saying that the neighbors are innocent and that they aren’t doing anything and that they have never done anything and it’s all me…I don’t want to use the word “ignorant” but it’s not appreciated and very misinformed. I’ll cop to being wrong about a lot of things and I’ll cop to blowing things out of proportion but when neighbors are changing my life and changing me as a person, I take it very seriously.
Whew, got that off my chest now I feel better and now the timing is perfect to enjoy my crappy chili from Wendy’s and enjoy the soda I earned. I had a fair day at work, people were friendly as usual and on the commute home there were only a maximum of 4 other drivers who were jerks, the rest were OK.
This week flew by and tomorrow I expect to have a good day and get a few things done.
Life is a bowl of cherries if I can just ignore the pits.
Sayanara!
Thanks, that’s why I get out of the house and go to a park or drive-thru to park and drink a soda, it clears my mind a little. I had plans for ages to go to this museum near me but that plan was quashed by COVID-19.
Ditto for driving up to San Francisco and spending the day there.
I do over think some things. I think the solution is not to over think things.
Respect per se is not a bad thing. But in the context of this post it pretty much illustrates what is wrong with the way schizophrenics are treated by society and each other.
You didn’t have to put that line in. In the bigger picture and in my own personal picture, it does me a disservice by you not only negating my struggles as a schizophrenic and what I’ve gone through with these people and lowers and dismisses their part in it. It chooses them over me. And by saying that simple line it lowers my status in an apartment building where I pay rent and makes me seem not as “good” as them and makes it seem like they deserve respect and I don’t and makes it look like I am the bad guy and that I’m wrong in fighting back against them. When we do that to each other, it makes us less than. Respect isn’t wrong per se as I said, but in this case you’re almost choosing them over me. Which is your right-----but I bet you would not want it done to you.
I hear you. Nothing is worse then getting in to it with your own neighbors. It is good you have something to get out of bed each day and look forward to.
Thanks. I think the worst about life a lot but then almost every day no matter what I’m going through. I’ll have a good moments where I think: life is just life. Good and bad is going to happen. I just have to accept that life is good a lot of the time. Have a nice night.
