Basically an elderly relative who wouldn’t raise a finger to help me if I needed it has had a minor procedure. Now I’m supposed to look after them while they recover. Which I’m doing. But deeply resenting it at the same time.
People are just users.
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‘The less help you need the more you get…’
Rings true
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my beef today is having a huge online presence
open and honest about schizophrenia,
and when I sit down with the school kids at the party,
and start asking questions about them playing basketball,
they look at me strange, and get up and walk away.
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I want to hate on people today, I really do, but I always end up turning that hate inwards.
I don’t want to hate myself more than I already do.
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I’m pretty empty today… I don’t have the Emotions to hate…
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Ugh same I’ve been in a rotten mood all day because it’s been a rotten day. My tolerance for BS is below zero at this point 
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Hearing voices again. Trying not to react, but I’ve also gotten angry and would let out a bit of obscenity and putting them in their place. I never had any have had any problem articulating exactly what I think and I have a lot of experience dealing with assholes who tried to ■■■■ with me. Plus all of the things I’ve learned from many years of dealing with the voices.
I have a normal point of view regarding those who would abuse a person with mental illness, but since I am dealing with non-reality, it has it’s obvious drawbacks when I choose to go on my little (epic and long-winded?) rants.
And of course, then I hear voices that suggest that I may have frightened someone nearby and I start trying to explain myself and attempt to apologize. It becomes very emotional when I think I may have frightened a young child or teenager.
All very unusual for me at this point. I will see my study psychiatrist tomorrow and hopefully there will be a treatment option that still allows me to continue the study.
Sorry this is so long. I let the floodgates open again.
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I hate today because some chick is suing me for a car accident when I dented her door.
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Hahh! I’ll get chu!!! He-he-he-he! Git!!! Nah-h-h-h-ha! Gotcha!!!
The Lazy Man’s Guide to Enlightenment, 'Love"
What you don’t like about yourself or others - For things you don’t like about yourself, love yourself for them. Or for others. Love them for being those way -
It frees your thinking and you gain insights.
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So was I, I started out my day asking my boss on how frustrated I am with the fraud issue with the finance department. The issue has been present since 2015 and up until now it hasn’t been resolve.
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I had a hateful day yesterday too @everhopeful so i feel you 
hoping today will be better 
basically was worried about the whole Russia/Syria thing and my local bar put the prices way up on drinks, something to do with the new sugar tax
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Sorry about that. Sucks but it helps to know they are stupid. Just do your thing and don’t mind the situation.
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I want to be positive today
Kisses!!!
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I ■■■■■■■ hate my abusive psychiatrist from when I was a kid. I hate her so much and I hope her life falls apart. And that she suffers at least as much as I did I hate that bitch. I want her to rot in jail for the rest of her life.
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Did I miss the party ?
No it’s still happening ! 
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You can help the person even if the person is not of the highest moral level.
You should always look for the moral high ground, and set your petty egotism aside.
@everhopeful
Hate is not the opposite of love. The opposite is the fear of reacting at all.
But I do like @pob’s thought of loving the hate.
I’m bitter today. I’m angry at people for stupid ■■■■ that I should be happy for them for, but I’m not because I’m sad for myself. I hate my body. I hate that it’s so broken. I’m angry and it’s making me hate people that don’t deserve it.
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