Now no one will believe me. I can’t be imagining things. I feel a huge sick sense of oppression, omitting from them. They are listening to my moves wherever I go in my apartment. They talk or make random noises, often laughter that they try to control me with. The danger, power and craziness is palpable. I don’t know their trip, I think he must have been in jail at least, maybe prison, the woman is just a mean nasty ■■■■■, but she can get scary.
How can it be my imagination when anywhere I go they pump their fear into me? Can I imagine oppression so thick that emits from their apartment? I’m super stressed already and this is not good for my mental health. But it started dawning on me the last few days that with my track record and crying wolf so many times I might have a credibility problem. It has to stop but I don’t see it stopping and I am going to tell them if they don’t leave me alone I will complain to their apartment manager and mine. I will allow that part of this could be wrong, I have delusions granted, but I’ve always had parts of me that know what’s happening and I do trust and depend on my brain. But dealing with the neighbors in my own apartment building and being wrong so much has made me doubt myself a little though there are basic facts like the laughter and playing on weaknesses and a couple other things that are facts.
I get that. I often experience my neighbors and others harassing me for like half an hour straight or longer and I sometimes have violent thoughts against them. This too shall pass.
I had this guy who did me wrong. I was upset. I would drive by his house often and think of him.
I started praying for him and realized the sign on his house for his home based business was truly of artistic quality. That kind of helped me get out of the drivers seat.
Im sure a lack of communication is happening here. Maybe knock there door and invite them in for coffee? Im not dis-believing you -
but maybe if you got to know them, and them you, maybe it would allieviate your anxiety - and possible paranoia?
Theres an old chap that lives below me - that i swore blind for weeks he had it in for me, cos he was always abrupt when you met him. But it turns out he was genuinely scared of me - cos there were problem neighbours in here in the past. But once he got to know me - everything improved. See what i mean?
Paranoia hit me with my neighbour, I eventually just introduced myself, he was definitely not out to get me as I previously thought, it really cleared things up after the introduction, now I help the guy with his gardens and enjoy a beer with him every week!
The introduction may pay off and you can relax abit, lots of weight off your shoulders when all goes well…
Nick, buddy. Think of how this is going to look. Nobody you complain to is going to believe a schizophrenic when he says his neighbors are harassing him. Any confrontation is going to lead to you getting hospitalized and potentially evicted. You can complain that they are noisy, but you can’t accuse them of targeted harassment. Make enough noise complaints and maybe the landlord will step in and do something. And ask to be put on the waitlist for a top floor apartment so you can hopefully move into a new place and not have to worry about this in the future.
At my old thin walled apartment the noises I heard from neighbors made me feel they had it out for me. I liked the people and they were always friendly and they even invited me over for dinner many more times than I could possibly repay. The result: I still had those nagging negative thoughts. So my coping technique was to leave the apartment for a while. Take a walk in the woods or park. Feed the ducks stale bread. I have a car so I’d sit in parking lots and just people watch for a while. Other times I would put on headphones and blast deafening music into my ears. I’m not saying what works for me will be your solution. But I am glad you can write and vent your feelings here.
Let us know in a few how you are doing if you wish.
Yeah don’t confront them except to be friendly so you can feel better about them. See how they are delusions give us a false, sticky impression that only can be changed by checking out the reality of it. You will probably be surprised at the change it may make.
