I am done letting mental ilness rob me of my life. Life is soo short and there is alot of suffering in the world.
Maybe I should try to be a part of the solution starting with myself. I care about my life and I am gonna try to be the best person I can and to give myself compassion for all that I suffer. Im done giving my life away to anger and fear..ocd and all the crap in my life.
I want to live these next thirty years!!
I want to create!!!
I want to learn to love again!!
I want victory over the garbage in myself and in the world.
Exposure and acceptance is exactly what me and my therapist are trying to do now. Its been slow but im hoping with the zyprexa I can make some more progress.
Also…im gonna try to recognize my thought patterns just to be more away of my ilness. I already do mindfulness practice but I guess I’ve never really thought about consciously learning the patterns of my thoughts.