yeah, it sucks but sometimes I am so pessimistic towards my future. I cant even open the door in order to let in some workers at my house :/… my mother sees me in this state since years and she keeps saying me that ill always have some symptoms. should I just accept this? is this the path? a longlife illness with terribles symptoms she says… yeah
kisses to all hey 
when Monarch finds out they are,
they want to kill themselves,
the establishment of a mind split
on purpose,
voices attached to emotions,
the use and abuse.
“Any action is often better than no action, especially if you have been stuck in an unhappy situation for a long time. If it is a mistake, at least you learn something, in which case it’s no longer a mistake. If you remain stuck, you learn nothing.”
You should read the Power of Now! Great book! And no, this isnt the end of you 
You can choose to change that attitude! Whenever a negative thought comes in, redirect it with a positive one! Challenge that negative thought girl. I know it’s easier said than done, But with practice it becomes easier 
Sorry you’re having a tough time Anna1 I’m in a similar position and life sucks big time for me at the moment. Recently I’ve tried to accept the position I’m in and the illness I have, schizophrenia. If you don’t accept it you can get angry thinking “this is unfair” or “I deserve better than this” which is a reasonable reaction, but getting angry just makes the problem worse, feeling angry is not a nice feeling. What I’m trying to do, and I don’t find it easy, it to learn to take small pleasures and satisfaction from the little things in life, such as a nice meal, a good cup of coffee or a decent movie. I think when you have a severe mental illness, then life is always going to be hard, but some of us do ok and have a decent life, which gives me hope that my life may improve in the future, and perhaps yours will too.
you are nice prospero. I see a lot of ill people out there and it bothers me in some way. probably ill make ‘‘enemies’’ here on saying that but the mental illness scares me still. not in the way that I am afraid of the people with such problems but probably I am afraid not to have peace and a decent life as you say. but yes, my meds help me to be less angry also, to accept this and to make some things in the day… which is already a good thing. I dream about having a coffee with friends outside but I am really paranoid still :/. its a kind of hiding still my madness etc, heh…well get there one day I hope how old are you if you want to share it? me I am 34 years old, I feel detached from the others also with all this that I have. hugs prospero
I’m in my early forties Anna and been living with sz for a long time 
I know it’s hard to live with, I’m very paranoid too and hate leaving my apartment, but i force myself to do things i need to, such as picking up my meds and visiting a therapist. i take an anti-psychotic and an anti-depressant and they help a lot, i was a mess before i got on meds and didn’t function very well. are you taking meds, do they help? if not maybe you could talk to your pdoc about trying a different one. even on meds life is still hard… but i guess you have to just carry on as best you can, what choice is there… maybe they can find a cure for sz some day or make a better med that can make life easier…who knows. hugs back take care