I'm finding myself blaming my family for my poor mental health, and its not helping anything

[Ryanana]

I’m finding myself bitter about periods of time when I had depression, and I think significant periods of time to understand that I was severely depressed, from someone whom studied medicine, dealt with it herself, and I feel very sour about it.

From lack of help with homework, and my failures as a student and the stress and anxiety I went through and the depression, I just feel very little actual justice in how poorly my parents provided for me…and my outcome as a schizophrenic, and how they’ve made me feel now that I’m not working, now that I’m not “normal”…

I still care deeply about them, despite their flaws, and I’m relying on them now more then ever, and its not getting me anything. Even if its true, and there isn’t any smelling of ones own farts going on… I just feel like the world needs to know I didn’t do anything wrong.

I didn’t steal from people, I didn’t bully kids, I was just a person having a hard time, and there is no justice in this.

This is a senseless uncaring illness, that preys on poor people, and I feel like so much of the world is blaming me for not being some sort of beast mode alpha male and powering through tons of symptoms, that I’m an abject failure and leech on society.

There shouldn’t be a ditch where we just throw all our expectations for a person’s quality as a human being just because they got sick from something, but here we are, schizophrenic, and the world think’s we’re scum junkies that’ve never been worth a damn and that we deserve everything that’s happened to us.

I’ve never done a drug in my life, but I still got the Schizophrenia, I never had a record. I was a model citizen, but now that I have this illness, now that I’m on disability, the world thinks I’m garbage.

People I’ve grown up with, have shown their true colors and people I thought of as close family have sorely disappointed me with their insults, their abrupt disassociation, their lack of patience.

People I’ve given so much effort to, despite other people deserving it more, and for what? For me to be tossed aside because I upset them with my lack of energy.

[anon22322466]

Let me tell you if there was a way to solve SZ, just basically finish the ■■■■■■■■ phase of life, you’ll power through the remainder.

[everhopeful]

When I’m going through a rough patch I become very bitter and blame everything and everyone.

[anon28145038]

my dad makes it harder.

[Catch22]

Sometimes I find myself bitter and blaming my family even though I know they did all they could and still do to help. They weren’t perfect and there’s good and bad and hatred and love but they did their best .
Then I’ll blame myself,and that doesn’t help either.
I think forgiving and accepting and moving forward in anyway possible is the only healthy way.
There’s no perfect person or life. Ours isn’t any worse than anyone elses. Everyone has their burden.

[mtgirl23]

I think it’s natural to think about how family played a part in depression and schizophrenia. I too have thought maybe if I had different parents or parents who raised me differently I wouldn’t be struggling with schizophrenia, no energy, a job i hate, and always being alone.

I agree it is completely messed up and unfair how people stigmatize people with schizophrenia in this society. as if it’s anyone’s fault that they have schizophrenia! most people don’t understand that it’s not as simple as choosing to have more energy or pushing past someone. It’s a real serious illness. I also experienced people showing their true colors when I was first diagnosed. It was hurtful how I felt so abandoned by so many people. It’s sad that people react like that, and I’m so sorry for what you’ve gone through. It’ a hard illness to deal with and gets unfairly stigmatized, but you are not garbage at all. it’s something additional that we deal with that other people can’t understand, but we are worth something