Everything is just piling up, school, voices, and delusions/paranoia. I worry I won’t even make it a year before I break again. I’m getting really anxious and depressed at school to the point of self harm and suicidal ideation. Then those things bring on my symptoms. It’s all getting too much, my parents want me to stay in school but I don’t know. I guess this the way I’m venting, but I feel checked out of life already.
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Are you going to see your doctor?
Yeah, I worry he’s gonna send me to the hospital, but I guess at this point I probably need it
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Don’t worry about that. Focus more on just seeing him and finding out what he has to say.
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@John_Raven you’re too valuable to feel this way. If your pdoc wants you in hospital then go. You need your meds adjusted
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I will increase my meds for sure
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I plan on getting my meds adjusted.
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the only thing you need to be checking out is yourself.
Where do you plan on going, to a cold earth in winter, with lots of cold people hanging over your grave?
You never stuck me as the type.
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What about school is hard for you? How much time do you spend on schoolwork each week? Can you just take less classes?
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You are a lot wiser than me when I was 16. You probably are a lot wiser than me now. It’s good your parents want you to put your head down and finish. If people have never been on the meds and never had the illness they just really don’t understand. That’s unfortunate. I have a cousin who got his GED and joined the military.
I had a similar instance when I thought I’d freak out if I kept going to college. I overdosed and caused my parents a tough time. Now I do nothing. Maybe I will get back on my feet and maybe I won’t. I really want a life.
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@TheBest You go at your own pace in life. No one will judge you!. If you want to do different things with your life then go for it!!! I’m rooting for you!
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Thanks @anon78876561 means a lot.
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It’s okay if he does send you to the hospital. I know you dont want to go but if you’re self harming and have suicidal ideation, it may be what’s best to keep you safe.
I’m sorry you’re struggling, but you need to be 100% honest with your pdoc when you see him. I hope you feel better.
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I’ve honestly thought of suicide as an answer. But I know I’m stronger than that. This post was me just venting about stress, and my anxiety. Because it’s hard sometimes going through high school with Schizophrenia. But thanks for your response
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I spend 9-12 hours a day on school or doing school, no there’s no way I can lessen my classes. But I’m sure we’ll figure something out.
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Thanks 15151515
Yeah hang in there @John_Raven and work closely with your doctor.
If things become unmanageable then contact a crisis center/ hospital immediately.
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My therapist has also helped me a lot, but if worse comes to worse than I’ll definitely go to the hospital
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I’m glad you have a therapist also.
This should help you but the right med combo is vital.
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I’ll probably get an increase, thanks
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