I’ve been really up and down these past few days, haven’t slept the last night at all. i’m thinking of sleep depriving myself until I start to hallucinate. I’ve read that sleep deprivation can cure depression. I’ve been really depressed these last few months. Can’t concentrate. If I become psychotic while on anti psychotic medication, maybe I can become stuck in that way. Last time I went sleep deprived like this was 3 years ago, my initial psychotic break.
This time 3 years ago I was in the detention center but so psychotic I thought I was in my own room and couldn’t come out. But I felt good during my psychosis. I felt like amplitude 2.0. Felt like I could read minds, thought I was the 2nd coming of Jesus, halluciations, God talking to me… Every symptom of schizophrenia. I’m thinking of staying the course and just not sleeping for a couple days.
I’m crazy. I wish I wasn’t, but it’s who I am, who else would do this ■■■■?
I’ll still miss a night of sleep maybe once a year nowadays. But more than one night without crashing for a while is too much for me, I know that. Been there though, three days plus were my records but I was never up to anything productive after the first night anyway.
I remember coming home and hitting bed after some of three days awake too, It was always a good feeling to satiate the need to conk out and sleep.
Think about some sleep though. Do you really want to go back and revisit psychosis again?
Don’t do that to yourself. It wont make your depression go away. It’ll just make things worse. If you have trouble sleeping, seek some aid for it. A bit of exercise could help even.
You are not crazy either. None of us are. We just have an illness is all.
I wouldn’t believe the thing about sleep deprivation curing depression unless I checked cit with a doctor. It sounds dangerous to me. Psychiatrists are MD’s so maybe run it by him before you make any potentially big mistakes. I’ve hallucinated before from lack of sleep. It was mentally painful and rather frightening and not fun. You say you felt good during your psychosis.I think you misunderstood your own feelings or senses. You may have felt “high” in some way but your description of your psychosis sounds nothing like ‘good’. My psychosis was not good in any way except for a false sense of thinking it was good. I often thought I was “learning” things about life while psychotic but that was false too.
@Amplitude I agree with nick77 best check with your psychiatrist about sleep deprivation…not good for a schizophrenic and your lack of sleep tells me that you are possibly delusional right now. I hope you get to feeling better.
You should consider going to a hospital if its getting that bad. They can help you.
I’m starting to get bad again and thats what I’m considering, it was suggested by my therapist.
I feel like I’m in your boat… I was hit with 4 days of no sleep and a high fever…
and the visionary euphoria I’ve been through has been epic…
Every atom of the universe is in me and I am in every atom… it’s been the most uplifting and expanding thing I ever felt next to drugs. My brain is still swimming in the harmony of the cosmos.
Every cell in me has finally tuned into the healing power of the earth and can relate to the boundless energy of love…
It hasn’t been easy for the people who love me… but they have been telling me I’m hitting a manic phase. I’ve never felt one of these before.
I sort of want to disagree with them on this… but when it does let go and I’m not feeling quite so out there… I do see that I’m sort of hitting all the points that the diagnostic says about a manic phase. Which confuses me and makes me sad. I WANT to feel this amazing as much as I can… but then to be told that this isn’t a good thing… how can this NOT be a good thing?
That part is a little sad for me… all this energy… all this feeling of insight and connectedness … all this peace and the want to spread it to everyone… and no… I’m just hitting a manic wave.
I’d say… keep your eye on this great vibe… enjoy the ride as it comes and goes… but all things to come to an end… I hope that you don’t wipe out… that sure does hurt more then coming to the end of the wave.
Sleep depriving ones self is probably one of the worst things some one with psychosis can do.
It can seriously throw you off center and trigger mania, hallucinations , delusions or a combination of these symptoms.
It is best to talk to your pdoc and see what he can do for you as far as the right meds go -
I too notice that when I dont sleep well, I am on the manic side of things many times, but doing this on purpose is just asking for a heap of trouble - you dont know what will happen
I used to stay up for over a day sometimes and it happened a lot during the winter season with the shorter days etc. I remember the depression would lift once it hit the 24 hour mark. It was a crazy euphoria and delusions with some mild hallucinations. Everything I looked at looked like it was breathing and pulsating. Then I finally got tired around the 36 hour mark and slept in a 12 hour coma.
I think I have the answer now too much dopamine and too less dopamine both are bad for pschosis .now if anybody has too less dopamine one day in say a month may help the person increase dopamine .how if you do that regularly the dopamine might increase to maximum levels causing pschosis.you are better of doing things the other way.try to increase the quality of your sleep.excercise and herbs and vitamins help to improve qulaity of sleep.
It has been proven that improving qulaity of sleep helps in removing symptoms of schizophernia
I would be careful. You might go so far out you can’t come back. I’ve found some psychotics states to be pleasurable too, but you might start doing things that get you in trouble with the authorities, and they might drastically curtail your freedom.
Yeah, I’ve slept a lot since then. I know what you mean. When I was psychotic I was locked up for almost a week. My doctor upped my abilify to 20 mg now. Hopefully my symptoms will subside.
To be honest I’ve been doing the same thing lately…deliberately trying to set off my psychosis…real life is so boring and painful.
I don’t mean to be a negative influence though. There’s a fine line between acceptance of one’s illness and giving up to it. Good luck to you, I hope things improve. Wish there was more we could do.
Well, I guess some would feel better somewhat manic from not sleeping for little while if you just had to physically run without thinking…
Three over the counter sleep pills (total 75 mp) work for someone a little overweight…Or a shot/two of hard alcohol with it can speed it up if you are resistant to these drugs as they are only allergy pills anyway, meth labs took good sleep pills off pharmacy shelf. Expect to feel bad in morning so leave more time…
I am not a doctor. Nothing I say should be construed as medical advice. Please sign release for being provided this information…Kidding.