Would you be satisfied in your parents that they love you too and have wonderful things to say at your funeral or do you feel like you are the black sheep, putting up with you for years
Reason I ask I just don’t know what my folks would remember me as ---- I don’t want to be known as the idiot Sz
Doesn’t matter. I’ll be dead and wont know what happens.
Lmao. No, my parents wouldn’t say anything kind about me. They wouldn’t even pay for a funeral, I’ve already been told this. Good thing I don’t want one.
They would use my death to gather sympathy though. It’d be all about them.
I always want to kill myself but my family won’t let me.
Oh no @Aziz!
Don’t even think it.
The thought of it is always there due to my situation but I hide it. Also I don’t want my family to suffer because of my loss so I never act on it unless off meds or on low dose meds for some reason but the thought of it is always there. Thanks.
Yeah when I get very low I think about it too but I won’t act upon it.
So much stigma - nowhere to talk to - the moment you bring it up in therapy - they put you in the hospital - its really lonely to have long term suicide ideation.
I am better now - But i know its not what i want to do as a way out. But its almost like intrusive thoughts, i can’t stop thinking about it.
I am actually surprised it didn’t get removed or flagged like everytime I talk about suicide. I guess this time I was less explicit.
Yeah - i think ideation is very different from being actively - S-idal. But its suffering.
My panic attacks make me think of suicide sometimes, but I would never act on it. I’m scared of dying too.
Worrying too much about how you will be remembered seems like a waste of energy to me. Just try to be a good person and hope that people will remember you as such , I guess. You can’t control others thoughts, so for the most part, it seems like a waste of time to me.
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